I just turned a day older. How do I feel? Honestly, I've got mixed feelings. Well, probably I've mentioned many times, I don't like the process of aging at all. I detest it to the point that I wouldn't be even able to describe it! But on the other hand, I'm learning to be really grateful.
Actually, I am beyond grateful, blessed and humbled. Yes, that's what I am. I'm truly grateful, blessed and humbled when I look at my life. I married my best friend. Coming this November, it would be our 11th wedding anniversary and adding on 10 years of dating prior to that, I've known Babe for more than my life time. There's nothing that I want to change about Babe! Every morning when I wake up next to him. I can't believe that God has given Babe to me!
I've got the most beautiful, lovable, adorable and the best son in the entire world. Every morning, I can hear him playing, being ever cheerful and bouncing into our room to give us morning kisses. On nights when we come home late, he'll try his best to wait up for us. He's always thinking about us. I remember once on a flight with Baba (it was just him and me), the flight attendants were serving drinks and I only got one to give him and nothing for myself. Immediately, he raised his little hand to ask for a drink for me. He was probably only 2 and half at that time. My heart melted when he did that.
I've got the most supportive family that one could ever ask for. My family is always there for us. Regardless whatever it may be, they'll always be there to lend a helping hand. Mum flew over when Baba first arrived. Jacqui flew over twice to help and once she flew over so that Babe and I could go on a short trip by ourselves. Joanne never fails to pick us up at the airport and whenever I head back and if I need her car, she'll not hesitate to lend it to me.
Friends, I've been very blessed with friends near and far. I know if something does happen to Babe and me, Baba will be in very good hands because his godparents will never hesitate to step into our shoes to raise him the best that they can. I'm so grateful that in HK, God has given us friends that are family. Recently, I've seen how God has used this family in HK to rally around the family and be supportive of us, love us and just be there for us. So very grateful.
So what else can I ask for? Nothing! God has blessed me so much and the reality is that there's nothing that I want. In my last few blogposts, I know I did sound a little depress. But I'm so glad that God lifted me out and showed me the wonderful things that He's been working around me. And when I pause and reflect upon God's goodness, I can't help but to be so grateful of how much he has given me. If you ask me twenty years ago, would I envision that my life would be the way it is now, I'll probably say no. And if you ask me ten years ago, and the answer is still no. I would never envisioned how much I've been blessed now. God has given me above and beyond whatever I've ever dreamt of materially, spiritually and emotionally. I've gotten know God at a deeper level. Babe and I have a much stronger marriage. So what can I ask for? I honestly, don't know.
Our family is in the waiting to enter a new season. The next few months may be hazy and foggy and at times, we may not even see what's just one meter ahead, but we know very well that God will be leading the family along. In the last month, He has consistently showed me signs of how He has carried the family through or signs of how He's going to bless us. God has never failed us even in our deepest and darkest moments in our lives, so why would He fail us now? All we need is to cast all our cares and burdens upon Him.
In short, we are totally excited to enter into this new season but while we are waiting, God is going to make us stronger. And I like the waiting!
Dear Heavenly Father,
I just want to say THANK YOU!
