Bittersweet
So last night I received a phone call with news that could be the best news or the saddest news in the last three years pending on the decision that's going to be made. I went to bed with a very heavy heart knowing that the possibility of the outcome. It's the outcome that would probably make me really sad. I lay in bed questioning God why did you allow that phone call to come through and get me all excited thinking that my prayers have been answered only to realize the reality that the excitement can be soon extinguished by sadness. And as I lay, I began to cry out to God, it was pretty heart wrenching to a certain extent because I wasn't able to pour out my soul to Babe because he's away on a mission trip which I'm incredibly proud of. But that's another story altogether. And as I pour out my soul, I heard God speak in a small and gentle voice. He told me to trust and have faith in Him. And yet again, it's really hard. I'm not going to deny that it...