Living out Faith

For the longest time I struggle with depression. I've never been clinically diagnosed. My mum was clinically depressed for a long time. She probably had depression in most of my childhood and teenhood. It was something that I grew up with. I guess in some ways, it affected me. Growing up, I've always told myself that I will fight this depression and not let it get to me. To a certain extent, I think depression is a selfish disease. Depression ignores the rest of the world but just focuses on that one patient leaving the people around the patient to suffer. I've always had my dad to look up to and in all the craziness that he's been through, he pulled through life. I think the moment dad passed on, I felt the rug being pulled out from under me. It's like the one person who sheltered me through really hard times is now gone. Over the years, I've always been able to tell myself that, what does not kill me, makes me stronger. Quote by Friedrich Nietzsche. But over t...

It's been more than ten years since I've written anything on my blog. But so much has happened so far and I needed an outlet to write and so I decided to revive my blog. This blog is not going to be about my family, the boys, the Handsome Hero but rather, it would be about me trying to live out faith and yes, it is hard. On 5th of December, 2025, I received the worst news ever when at work. Dad went home to the Lord. The next few hours went in a blur. Before I got news that dad was going to heaven, mum called the Handsome Hero to let him know that Dad had days left and the Handsome Hero called me and I had to work out the logistics of getting time off from work and then booking flights. Not long after I booked my flights, yes, news came that dad was welcomed at the gates of heaven. The next few hours at work was pretty much in a blur. Then got home, packed and off to the airport with the family. We caught the red eye flight. I barely got any sleep. Eyes were red from crying. To...