One of my Greatest Fears

When I was doing my nails yesterday, I was reading a magazine and came across an article about a lady who by the age of 18 lost both of her parents. It was a kinda sad article but this lady to a certain extent did well in her life but of course, she misses her parents heaps.

And then, I started my morbid thoughts. Yes, me and my morbid thoughts. I was thinking, what if one day, either Babe or I go to heaven or what if both of us go to heaven and what would happen to Ba Ba? I remember on our way to and back from Maldives, I was kinda worried thinking what would happen if the plane crashed and Ba Ba would be left all alone. Maybe that might be one of the reasons why I was severely airsick on that flight.

But as I thought further, I realised that even if God decides to take me or both Babe and me home, Ba Ba would be well taken care of. I've got to trust God on that. I've got a loving family that would take Ba Ba and love him. Ba Ba has wonderful and loving godparents in Singapore and in San Diego who would step up if the need comes. And hence, there shouldn't be any worrying.

And that's when I calmed down and thought, yes little one, God will take care of you. And in the same breath, Ba Ba, remember that Da Da and Ma Ma love you very much and no matter whatever that happens, you'll always have our love. But sorry, dude, we can't be buying the whole of Toys 'R' Us even though I know secretly Da Da would love to do that!