Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Technology

This post is dedicated to mum. It's for her. I must say that I'm truly proud of her. Proud of her finally learning technology.

Joanne and Jacqui decided to buy mum a mini laptop since her birthday was yesterday. They told me and I told them to make sure get one with a camera and get her a pink one. So they did. Two days ago, Jacqui set up her laptop and she set up msn messenger for her too. I was thinking that no way she'll be able to use it. Actually, last Mother's Day they wanted to buy the mini laptop for her but the thought of teaching mum how to use it, turned them off. But guess, they realised that mum does need to learn how to use technology after all.

So this morning while I was at work, mum popped up and started chatting with me. Well, not too bad. And then, this evening, she popped up again. I told her to click onto the word video or accept me for a video chat and she did it. And she did it all by herself! Woohoo!!! Can't believe that! Now all I've to ask her to do is to get onto skype.

Well, talking about skype, I never really used to use it. Babe's company takes care of our phone bill and thus, I hardly saw the need for skype. Eve got onto skype and told me to get on it. And so far, I like it, not complaining. But now, am glad that I've skype. Now, I've got to make sure that my sisters get skype for mum so that I can video chat with her and she can see Happy too.

So there you go...Mum! Can't believe that you finally have you own laptop! Very proud of you!

Saturday, September 26, 2009

Roller Coaster Life

I love theme parks. A real love for them. I guess it must have stemmed from my childhood. My earliest memory of a theme park was going to Gay World as a kid. Yes, Gay World??? There was nothing gay about Gay World but rather gay as in happy! I remember screaming down the roller coaster and the flying chair.

When I went to Gold Coast to study, it was almost heaven. The home of Dreamworld, Seaworld and Movieworld. Loved visiting them. Even for our honeymoon, we went to Disneyland and last Christmas we did Disneyland again and we did Universal Studios too. Oh, and not forgetting Knott's Berry farm with Eve. My next target, Orlando. Disneyworld and Universal Studios. And Universal Studios is going to have Harry Potter theme rides too! Can't wait.

Anyway, enough talk about theme parks. Well, as I think of my life, I kinda realised that my life is quite like a roller coaster ride or an exciting ride in a theme park. I never really know when the down comes and when the up comes and what will come at the turn or when will the turn comes. And like a ride, I'm not in control. I can't preempt what's going to happen unless I've taken the ride before. It's the same with my life, I've not lived my life before and therefore I really don't know what my life is going to be like. Or what's going come around the corner. And no matter what, God is in control and He's my safety net. So far, I'm enjoying my adventure ride. It is truly rather quite exciting!

Oh....just another 2 months before my little jumbo Jo Claire will be here for a visit. Can't wait!

Saturday, September 19, 2009

Addendum

I've got stuff to add to my letter to God and thus, addendum.

Dear God,

I forgot to thank you for giving wonderful friends on top of giving me a super supportive family that includes my nuclear and extended family. I guess that yesterday I was so engrossed in my ranting and raving that I didn't stop to reflect that God has given me wonderful friends at every stage of my life.

When I was a kid, you gave me Lina, my cousin, to see me through my childhood and my teenhood. She's one best friend that has the seen the best and worst of my growing up. She doesn't have to say anything, just her presence comforted me heaps when I was growing up.

When I was at uni, I met Eve and till now we remained as best friends. you sent Eve to me through uni and then when I left uni, we lost contact and just before I got married, you sent her back to my life. She was there when I went to Sydney to do my masters. Sydney would been super difficult without her!

Stan, I met him in Sunday School when we were probably 6 or 7. We remained best friends from Sunday School all throughout uni. He was in Brisbane and I was in Gold Coast and till now, whenever I'm back in Spore, we make time to catch up. You gave him to me to be my reminder to have steadfast faith in you.

When I started working in WDP, in some strange ways, only you know, Sharon and me clicked. Sharon is probably total opposite from me but we clicked and got along fabulously with each other and till now, I consider her as one of my inner circle friends.

When I arrived in HK, you gave me friends at different times. Some remained as friends and some faded away because they moved away or we grew in different directions. But God, after 3 years, you provided me a good support of network. You gave me friends that I know I can count on in HK.

So after some pondering, I realised that yes, there's heaps for me to be thankful for but the selfish person in me failed to notice these little things. I'm sorry.

Thank you for every new morning,
For every brand new day,
I can just never thank you enough!

God, help me to see every day in a positive light and to be patient to wait upon you. I know, you will fulfill your will soon.

Love,
Faith

Friday, September 18, 2009

Dear God

Dear God,

Well, it might be like a letter or prayer to you. It's basically my thoughts and my prayers. There's always lots of thoughts swirling in my head all the time and it's a little difficult for my to decipher them at times. So sorry if I sound quite random.

God, I must say that you have been very gracious and merciful in my life. More so than I expect or expected. You've seen me through all of my difficult times, held my hand, walked me through and carried me. There may be times that I can't feel you being next to me but when I think back those times, I realised that you were there all the time. I can't ask for more.

But God, do you know sometimes it is hard? Well, of course you knew. You sent your son down for me and of course it was hard. And it's difficult for me to comprehend that. I know I should not complain about my life and issues that I'm going through because I know you and your son went through far more than I am going through. But am I entitled to rant and rave just a little? Look, I'm not mad at you. Don't take it the wrong way but there's a little part of me that wants to have some answers to my life now!

Yes, I know I have issues with patience. Yes, lots of issues with it. I want instant answers to my questions. I hate to wait. But I know that I'll savour the moments and things even more when you finally bestow them upon us. I know all these in theory but God, it's hard when it comes to practical. Knowledge does not always equate to actions.

However, having said and written some of my thoughts, God, thanks for everything. That's from the bottom of my heart. You've given me a wonderful husband, I could never ask for anything better because he's already the best for me! You've given me supportive parents and sisters. Family that would drop everything to come to my aid. I can never thank you enough. God, I'd appreciate if you could just hasten some of the processes in my life. But God, at the same time, take your time because I know that in your time, you make everything beautiful, wonderful and perfect. And I just have to trust in you.

Well, that's about the end of my rants and raves. Thanks God for reading and listening.

Love, your child,
Faith

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Footsteps in the Sand

Footsteps In The Sand
One night a man had a dream.
He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the LORD.
Across the sky flashed scenes from his life.
For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand:
one belonging to him, and the other to the LORD.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him
he looked back, at the footprints in the sand.
He noticed that many times along the path of his life
there was only one set of footprints.
He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times of his life.

This really bothered him and he questioned the LORD about it:
"LORD, you said that once I decided to follow you,
you'd walk with me all the way.
But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life
there is only one set of footprints.
I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me."

The LORD replied:
"My son, My precious child, I love you and I would never leave you,
During your times of trial and suffering,
when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."

Author unknown

The first time I read this poem, I was very taken by it. I thought, wow, it is so true. Time passed and this poem has always been at the back of my head, I know it's there but never really had the reason or opportunity to pull it out.

Two days ago, this poem came flashing and floating back. Somewhere in May, it was a low point in my life, probably one of the lowest I've had in my life. I didn't think about this poem at all. But two days ago, it came to me. I realised that at that point, Jesus was probably sitting right next to my bed comforting and carrying me through my difficulties. Two days ago, I was reminded that no matter whatever that happens, the Lord will carry me through. Then it dawned upon me, if my Jesus will carry me through whatever that happens, what's there for me to be worried or concerned about? All my prayers will be answered in time. It may be a yes, no or wait but God has a purpose and reason for everything that comes through in my life.

Saturday, September 05, 2009

Isaiah 40:31

But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.

Isaiah 40:31

When to work this afternoon, have to say that obviously I wasn't too thrilled about going to work. Would much rather spend the time hiking in shopping malls with Babe or just lazing around at home. Anyway, went to work, was in the elevator and saw a poster with Isaiah 40:31. Was pleasantly surprised and very much encouraged as well.

Having been thinking and pondering about some stuff recently. And yes, there are days that I'm a little discouraged trying to second guess what's God's plan for us. But it dawned upon me today having read that verse in the elevator that God is in control and I have to relinquish my wants and needs and let Him take control. Yes, a timely and gentle reminder to wait upon the Lord!

Friday, September 04, 2009

First Week of School

School started this week. Frankly, I'm glad to be back at work. Well, I know, it's kinda strange. I missed interacting with the students. The break has been too long. Gee, can't believe that I actually typed that out.

This week started with work not being too heavy. There's work to do but at the same time, it has been interesting. One of my deputy principals asked me to help with a project and I'm more than happy to be working on the project with them. Will talk about it when I get more details. It's interesting to see me work evolve over time. This is my fourth year and it's becoming more enjoyable. Am very thankful for it.

This work week ended (Have to work tomorrow...so not really end of work week), with the thought that God has a purpose for everything and understanding that His mercies are new every morning and He is a faithful God. Still waiting upon His promises and knowing and understanding that He's in control in everything!