I've sent Happy to her friend's place. Sat down and packed my suitcase and there's a million and one thoughts racing through my head. Won't blog about those million and one thoughts but rather will blog about the other thousand and one thoughts! Yes, if you can actually open and have a look in my brains, you'll see thoughts racing around and sometimes crashing and bouncing off each other and thus creating more thoughts!
Anyway, each time before I travel, there's always thoughts racing in my head. I'm headed to Singapore tomorrow after work. For the first time, I'll be rolling my suitcase to work. Don't have time to head back even though I live 5 minutes away. Tomorrow will be a busy day. I've got 40 kids that would be skype conferencing with 40 kids in Singapore and then a day of classes and other stuff and then, at 4.30, catch the bus to the airport to catch my flight. On Fri, I'll be meeting 40 kids and 10 teachers from work at the airport in Singapore for a school trip and then in the night will have to pop in for a wake. Will blog about that later. And I'll continue to be busy till Tuesday and then, on Thursday night, we'll be flying out to Phuket for another little honeymoon and then after Phuket back to Singapore and thereafter on the 11th, back to Hong Kong. It's going to be a good time, spending time with my family and my favouritest niece too.
Death, I think a lot about death all the time. Mum called a couple of days ago to tell me that someone we know met with an accident. This someone is kinda related to us. Although I don't know him personally, I prayed and hoped that things will turn around for him. He was involved in a hit and run accident and I just read incredibly the guy that hit him was a drunk doctor. I'm like, what part of your brain told you that it's fine to drink and drive? And gosh, he's not even a young punk! He's a sixty odd year old man! Well, mum told Babe that he passed on this morning. Not sure if this person will be headed to heaven.
And that led me to another thought.....There are people that I really love and they are still not saved. I admit that I'm not the type that shares the gospel or go all the way out to ask people that love to go to church. I'd rather live my life to be a testimony of Christ. And then that led me to another thought.....How much of my life truly shows Christ in me? Honestly, I don't know? Ask me a percentage, and I'll tell you, sometimes five percent, and then on good days, forty percent? And on really good days, sixty percent. And am I proud? No, but rather disgusted with myself.
And then my thoughts moved to happy things. I'm thinking of seeing my little JC. The little girl that has brought heaps of joy to my family. Oh, I saw little Leina for a couple of minutes on skype this morning too. It's funny how I told Eelynn, the mother of Leina, that we'll try to plan a virtual playdate with JC next week. Eelynn is my cousin that lives in San Francisco. And yes, it pains me that I can't see her daughter but well, in good time, we'll see her soon. And this evening my good friend, Sharon texted me to tell me the sex of her new baby. I'm so glad to be a part of this unborn child's life. Sharon, thanks for including me. Can't wait to see her and little Gabriel too.
Going to stop here....the more I blog, the more random thoughts come to mind. But I'll end with this. There are days that I wonder much about things, but I know one thing for sure, God has a purpose for everything. I may have lots of random thoughts, but nothing in my life is random. God has placed everything, every person and every situation in my life for a purpose. There are times that I know the purpose but there are times that I don't know. However, I know that I can lean on Him and ride out on my adventure with Him. Now, I'm going back to my million and one thoughts.
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Infidelity
I've been thinking about this for a couple of days. It started with Tiger Woods' affairs, followed by Jack Neo's affair and then Sandra Bollocks' husband cheating. It got me thinking a little. Then last Saturday, I saw my ex-student's parents. I was told by someone that the husband left the wife for someone a while ago and when I saw them, they were obviously back together and they seemed quite happy together.
I've got my line drawn very straight about infidelity. I told Babe before we got married that if he ever cheated or even if it was a one night stand, I don't ever want to know because if I ever knew it, I would leave him. I would leave because I know that I would never be able to forgive him. If you know Babe well, you'll understand why I made that statement. Babe is not the sort that would actually chat a woman up and let alone cheat. And therefore if he did cheat, she must have meant something to her. But having written all these, sometimes I wonder when push comes to shove, what would I actually do? The truth is that, I don't know. Would I walk away from my marriage knowing that what the man did was in a moment of folly? Or find it in my heart to forgive him and work it through? I don't know....Really, don't know.
Don't be alarmed, no one is cheating in our marriage. Guess sometimes things that I read and see bring way too much thoughts to me.
I've got my line drawn very straight about infidelity. I told Babe before we got married that if he ever cheated or even if it was a one night stand, I don't ever want to know because if I ever knew it, I would leave him. I would leave because I know that I would never be able to forgive him. If you know Babe well, you'll understand why I made that statement. Babe is not the sort that would actually chat a woman up and let alone cheat. And therefore if he did cheat, she must have meant something to her. But having written all these, sometimes I wonder when push comes to shove, what would I actually do? The truth is that, I don't know. Would I walk away from my marriage knowing that what the man did was in a moment of folly? Or find it in my heart to forgive him and work it through? I don't know....Really, don't know.
Don't be alarmed, no one is cheating in our marriage. Guess sometimes things that I read and see bring way too much thoughts to me.
Saturday, March 20, 2010
Of Being Busy and Thoughts
Yes, I know, it's been a long time since I've updated my blog. So last week, I was kinda down with a cold. Didn't feel like doing anything other than to vege out in front of telly. And this week, I'm back into my busy life. Errmmmm, my busy social life. One would think that I would be very free since Babe is not around half the time....But no, Mon night, Body Balance class and then dinner with Kim. Tues night, Jukari class and then dinner with Aunty Janet and her family. Wed night, yes, caught my breath, Body Combat class and home for dinner. And Thur, Body Balance class and home for dinner too. Friday, dinner with Kris. Today, chill out till evening and then dinner at Disney with my fav cousin, Lina. Tomorrow, church and thereafter dinner with Pauline. There you go, my week!
Anyway, was reading an ex-colleague's blog recently about her decision to quit her job. As I read her blog, the memories of quitting in Singapore and leaving for Hong Kong came floating back. The reality is that, I no longer have regrets or anger towards my some of my ex-colleagues but rather I do feel sorry and pity for them. I've moved on and am very happy with what I have now. And in some ways, I believe that quitting my job may have helped my marriage too. Reading her blog also made me realised that sometimes we need to be pushed to make a change and very often that change will do us good.
If truth be told, it was kinda hard at that time for me to walk away from my job and leave for another job and in a different country too. When I left, it was meant only for one contract which is 2 years. Well, the 2 years rolled and time past fast. And I signed for another contract. In about 4 months, my contract will be up and yes, what's next? Next, I think if it God's will, I'll probably stay for another contract and then.....I don't know. I no longer can plan and tell what's going to happen. But I like the roller coaster ride!
Since Babe's away quite a fair bit and I've been living like a single person again. It's been a long while. Sure, it's nice to be able to go to the gym and have dinners with my girlfriends. And yes, I can stay up all night watching telly and cook whatever I like for dinner without having to think of the other person. However, there's a big BUT, I miss him quite a bit. I miss having him around. Miss having to share silly jokes that only we both can understand. And miss having deciding what we should have for dinner and I miss catching movies with him too. But in like 5 days' time, I'll be able to see Babe! Can't wait! And yes, we're going to be in Phuket too!! Whoopppeeee!!!!!
Anyway, was reading an ex-colleague's blog recently about her decision to quit her job. As I read her blog, the memories of quitting in Singapore and leaving for Hong Kong came floating back. The reality is that, I no longer have regrets or anger towards my some of my ex-colleagues but rather I do feel sorry and pity for them. I've moved on and am very happy with what I have now. And in some ways, I believe that quitting my job may have helped my marriage too. Reading her blog also made me realised that sometimes we need to be pushed to make a change and very often that change will do us good.
If truth be told, it was kinda hard at that time for me to walk away from my job and leave for another job and in a different country too. When I left, it was meant only for one contract which is 2 years. Well, the 2 years rolled and time past fast. And I signed for another contract. In about 4 months, my contract will be up and yes, what's next? Next, I think if it God's will, I'll probably stay for another contract and then.....I don't know. I no longer can plan and tell what's going to happen. But I like the roller coaster ride!
Since Babe's away quite a fair bit and I've been living like a single person again. It's been a long while. Sure, it's nice to be able to go to the gym and have dinners with my girlfriends. And yes, I can stay up all night watching telly and cook whatever I like for dinner without having to think of the other person. However, there's a big BUT, I miss him quite a bit. I miss having him around. Miss having to share silly jokes that only we both can understand. And miss having deciding what we should have for dinner and I miss catching movies with him too. But in like 5 days' time, I'll be able to see Babe! Can't wait! And yes, we're going to be in Phuket too!! Whoopppeeee!!!!!
Monday, March 08, 2010
Extravangance
Over the last year, I've been trying to shop a little less and add more to my pathetic savings. I thought I did pretty well. Think I bought lesser clothes, bags and shoes. Even Carmen, whom I was having dinner with last Monday thought so too. And last Saturday, I was telling friends at dinner that I plan to retire in 4 years' time. And when Pauline asked what I was going to do after I retire, I told her, drive my future kids to school, to classes, cook dinner and then I stopped. And I told everyone, that I'm already bored by my stay at home mum's lifestyle! And Duke, laughed and he said, my retirement savings might disappear in like a week or month after my retirement!
I kinda thought about what they said, I thought, well, I did shop a little less. But at the same time, the things that I bought, were more expensive. Which is not good. But my savings did grow but not at the rate that I was hoping for. But at the end of the day, I realised that, money and having material stuff is not as important as being happy and having love. Babe bought me a really nice birthday present. And the bag was like close to our rent. I did feel kinda sick to know that he paid that much for a bag. To Babe, that was how he wanted to express his love to me. To me, even if he bought me a straw bag, I'll be happy as long as he loves me. And yes, Duke's statement is true too. I'll spend my retirement savings in less than four weeks! So, no retirement in 4 years. Will probably have to work for another 10 years or so....so that I'll have enough money for my shopping retirement.
So, my new resolution, to really cut down the extravagance and save more money! Yes! Save money!!!!
I kinda thought about what they said, I thought, well, I did shop a little less. But at the same time, the things that I bought, were more expensive. Which is not good. But my savings did grow but not at the rate that I was hoping for. But at the end of the day, I realised that, money and having material stuff is not as important as being happy and having love. Babe bought me a really nice birthday present. And the bag was like close to our rent. I did feel kinda sick to know that he paid that much for a bag. To Babe, that was how he wanted to express his love to me. To me, even if he bought me a straw bag, I'll be happy as long as he loves me. And yes, Duke's statement is true too. I'll spend my retirement savings in less than four weeks! So, no retirement in 4 years. Will probably have to work for another 10 years or so....so that I'll have enough money for my shopping retirement.
So, my new resolution, to really cut down the extravagance and save more money! Yes! Save money!!!!
Wednesday, March 03, 2010
Worked Late
For the first time ever since I started work in HK for more than three years, I was at work till about 7pm. If that happened in my last job, I would have been irritated and angry. But rather today, I didn't have any negative feelings at all. I actually felt good. And that got me thinking about a couple of things.
One of the things that struck me at the meeting was the camaraderie that was so apparent. We had a meeting on the school tour. The person that was meant to be in charged, had to pull out of the school tour because of medical reasons. When he found out that he was not able to make it on Monday, a colleague stepped up to it immediately and from what I saw and observed today, the colleague did it with a joyful heart. I saw a team that is willing to work hand in hand and help carry each other's burden.
The other thing that I struck me, was the appreciation of each other in the team. And credit and appreciation is always given when it's due. I remember attending meetings previously where team members get frustrated with each other and words are being said and thereafter feelings get hurt. Maybe I've not being enough meetings in my current job to see these sort of behaviours but so far, I've not seen any real negative behaviours.
Why am I really blogging about my job? Well, come this August, it'll be four years in my job. When I took up this job, it was planned for two years. Two years passed and I signed another contract. Now, my contract is coming up. And in some ways, I was looking for the frustration and irritation in my job to tell me that my time in HK is up. But I didn't feel those negative feelings at all. And to be honest, I still bounce out of bed. And to date, I only took one day of sick leave from 1 Sept, which is the start of the academic year, till now. It's a record for me! So how much do I like my job? Very much. Enough to sacrifice part of my Easter holiday to help with the school trip.
One of the things that struck me at the meeting was the camaraderie that was so apparent. We had a meeting on the school tour. The person that was meant to be in charged, had to pull out of the school tour because of medical reasons. When he found out that he was not able to make it on Monday, a colleague stepped up to it immediately and from what I saw and observed today, the colleague did it with a joyful heart. I saw a team that is willing to work hand in hand and help carry each other's burden.
The other thing that I struck me, was the appreciation of each other in the team. And credit and appreciation is always given when it's due. I remember attending meetings previously where team members get frustrated with each other and words are being said and thereafter feelings get hurt. Maybe I've not being enough meetings in my current job to see these sort of behaviours but so far, I've not seen any real negative behaviours.
Why am I really blogging about my job? Well, come this August, it'll be four years in my job. When I took up this job, it was planned for two years. Two years passed and I signed another contract. Now, my contract is coming up. And in some ways, I was looking for the frustration and irritation in my job to tell me that my time in HK is up. But I didn't feel those negative feelings at all. And to be honest, I still bounce out of bed. And to date, I only took one day of sick leave from 1 Sept, which is the start of the academic year, till now. It's a record for me! So how much do I like my job? Very much. Enough to sacrifice part of my Easter holiday to help with the school trip.
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