Living out Faith

So sometimes I wonder a decision that was made probably a decade ago was the right decision or was it a wrong one. Then I wonder, so if it's a wrong one, what do I do now, do I walk away or do I suck it up and try to make it work? And then sometimes I wonder if its worth trying to make it work, and in all these crazy wondering and pondering I wish that I can just stay in bed for days and not get up at all and not even wash or even brush my teeth. Then I realize, crap! Isn't that depression? People who stay in bed for days and weeks and months and then what, years, aren't they people with depression? And I think to myself, man, wish I could do that. And then I realized, what? Am I actually envious of people that are in depression? Man, am I sick or what? Then a light goes off in my head, so if I didn't have any responsibilities or any dependents or whatsoever, I would be able to be in depression and stay in bed all day and all night. So people that have responsibilitie...

So it's been a long time since I last wrote on my blog. Well, update from the last post, decision has been made and I'm glad that it's the decision that I prayed for. And now, we have to wait. Yes, got to love the waiting game. Had a wonderful December. Jacqui's wedding was a blast. But at the same time, kinda bittersweet. Am glad that she married someone that she's known for a really long time. They probably met when they were babies, were best friends and maybe a year or so ago decided to start dating and then, the wedding. A beautiful wedding, great company and a blessed time with the family. But what's hard is that Jacqui moved to Melbourne. To a large extent, it's kinda hard for everyone in the family especially Jojo. When Jojo was born, Jacqui has always been there and then now, she's suddenly gone. Jojo finds it hard. The reality is that everyone notices her absence. I miss the coffee that she makes for me. And her being there for the family. Ki...