A Well Spent Saturday

This week, I emailed a lady from church to join the ladies to go to a drug rehab centre. To be really honest, it felt quite daunting to join a bunch of ladies that I've not met before and even more daunting to interact in Canto to a bunch of ladies who are recovering from drug addiction. But yes, I garnered up my courage and told myself, I'm not doing for myself, it's for Jesus' glory.

So this morning, I woke up bright and early to go to the gym for a class. Am a little amazed at myself for bringing myself to the gym. After gym, I went to meet the ladies to go to the rehab centre. I must say that I was a little apprehensive because I've not worked with teenagers before. But going there and listening to their stories, made me realised that I'm very thankful for my life and for God's guidance in my life. I could have easily ended up like anyone of those girls but with God's divine intervention, He steered me in the right path. When one of those girls said that all she wants for Christmas is love, I almost wanted to hug her and say that God loves her and that she has my love too. But I didn't and I regret.

I went to the drug rehab centre thinking that I would administer to the girls but instead was ministered by them. Thanks girls!

Love

Last week, Iris, a friend that I knew from church in Spore, emailed me asking if I could attend her wedding during the time that I'm back in Spore. Iris is getting married to Colin and I've known the both of them for ages and ages. Probably more than 20 years! Jacqui was home when I asked her about Colin and Iris and she told me that they were both in the same kindergarten class. I was blown away. So in other words, they practically known each other for almost their whole lives! After kindergarten, they were in the same class in Sunday School and probably hung out together in Youth Fellowship and stuff. Such sweet love! Oh of course, they only started dating like later, not when they were in kindergarten or anything like that.

After being a witness to a wedding, I've actually become a little wary of attending weddings. Not that I don't believe in love and weddings but a marriage take a lot and a marriage is sacred in my point of view. But people have taken marriages so frivolously. Sure, there's no guarantee that every wedding that I attend will turn out to be a great marriage. But there's always hope that the love will remain strong and sweet. However, sometimes it is not so. Recently, I heard from a friend that another friend's marriage broke up out of the blue because the husband met someone else. I wonder how can the wife not know that her husband was unfaithful? Did she not see the signs? And how apt that Karina gave me a book on marriage and I started reading it. And in the book, the author wrote that, there will always be signs that the marriage has cracks. It's almost never a break up out of the blue.

Sorry, Iris, I'm really not discouraging you and Colin, I'm really glad for the both of you because your love is based on a firm foundation of Christ. You both have a common goal, which is to glorify, love and serve God for the rest of your lives. And yes, I really love 'love stories' like yours and Colin. It reminds me of Babe and me. Reminds me that there's really true love. Can't wait to attend your wedding!

You Never Let Go

My life is always in a limbo, I admit that. There are days that I wake up and wonder, what's with my life and why is it sometimes what I plan for my life, does not pan out? It has taken a totally different turn to what I thought is the best plan for me.

Don't get mistaken, I'm not depressed or anything like that. I'm probably in a reflective mood more than anything else. Babe has taken on a job that takes him away from home a lot. And I probably see him like once every three or four weeks. It's kinda fine for me as I know that we're trying to work hard for our future. We speak on the phone every night and with technology, we msn each other at work. So we're connected as much as we can. However, sometimes, I wonder, why? What's God's plan for us? Sure, there are days that I think, maybe I should quit my job and join him and be with him. But the reality is that I love my job. I enjoy what I have now and Babe doesn't want me to quit too. He knows me well enough.

When Babe left, my family was here for another day and then they left. Jacqui stay longer and it was nice coming home knowing that someone is at home or someone will come home later. She left last night. But i'm thankful for Happy. Don't get me wrong, I'm not homesick. I enjoy the peace and quiet too. And yes, I'm still busy, haven't really have the time to chill and have dinner at home. But last night, I did wonder what's God's plan for us. Then, this song came fleeting to my head.

You Never Let Go
By Matt Redman
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
Your perfect love is casting out fear
And even when I'm caught in the middle of the storms of this life
I won't turn back
I know you are near

And I will fear no evil
For my God is with me
And if my God is with me
Whom then shall I fear?
Whom then shall I fear?

(Chorus:)
Oh no, You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no, You never let go
Lord, You never let go of me

And I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
A glorious light beyond all compare
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
We'll live to know You here on the earth

(Chorus)

Yes, I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
Still I will praise You, still I will praise You

And I thought, how true. God will never let go of us. And even though I walk through the shadow of death, He'll be will with me, His rod and staff will protect me. And whom should I fear? In His time, He'll bring Babe back home and in His time, He'll bring the child that we have been praying and committing to Him.

Hiking

Jacqui was planning to buy a camera when she came to Hong Kong and I thought that hiking might be a next way for her to play with her new toy. And so I emailed Mel and a couple others to ask if they wanted to go on a hike. Well, friends turned up and a couple actually emailed saying that they are turning up just to see me hike! Well, kinda flattered.

So on Sat, we went and hiked on Dragon's Back trail. We started at somewhere near Stanley and ended up at Shek O. Don't ask me where, I just followed. I survived the hike. Was superbly tired too!

On the hike, it brought back some memories. The times that I went on a hike, I can count by the fingers on one hand. The most recent was maybe 4 years ago when I was helping out in Sunday School camp. But the one that brought back the most memories while I was walking was the hike that I did probably 20 years ago or something like that. I was in Youth Fellowship and we went on a hike for maybe like 4 hours or more. It was brutal but fun. I thought of Adrian. He was my mentor in Youth Fellowship and I remember he feeding the monkey with luncheon meat and the monkey sniffed at it and then threw it away. I miss Adrian. Wonder what's it like in heaven for him. Adrian, miss you heaps. Sometimes I wonder why God decided that you deserve to head home so early.

Anyway, enough of that. Enjoy the pictures. Would have loved to take more pictures but I was too busy huffing and puffing and asking, 'Are we there yet?' And thanks girls and a boy for not pushing me down the mount!

Busy as a Bee

Well, Babe has taken up a job that would probably away from home most of the time and before taking up the job, he was very concern that he will be away most of the time. He was worried that I'll be lonely and bored at home. But the nice thing, friends called up to check if I'm alright and started to fill up my social calender. I've been out almost every night for dinner or something and well, I even gotten myself double booked and decided that all my dates and appointments have to go into my iphone now. Can't believe how busy I've gotten. Don't even seem to have time to sit down to talk to Babe when he calls.

And I've finally gotten off my fat ass to join a gym. Been thinking about it for about 2 years and have always want to join a gym because I like going for classes. So finally, took the plunge and joined it. Went for Body Balance and really had fun even though I almost tipped over a couple of times and my stomach muscles still hurt, I still love it! Shame that I can't go for any more classes this week because I'm busy as a bee! Next week will be a little better I hope.

Happy Thanksgiving!

Before I go on, I'm not American and not have really thought about Thanksgiving until my cousins moved to America and I moved to Hong Kong and started hanging out with Americans. Over time, I decided that Thanksgiving is one event that I'm going to start celebrating as a family. And no, I'm not an American wannabe or anything like that. I still don't celebrate Halloween or Independence Day. I chose to celebrate Thanksgiving because it's a good reminder to me that God has really provided lots for me. This includes materially and emotionally. And therefore it's serves as a good time to be thankful for the wonderful blessings that He has showered upon my family and me!

This Thanksgiving is extra special because I've got part of my family with me. Dad and mum along with Joanne and Jo Claire are visiting. It's nice to be with them. Dad went to Zhuhai this morning for work. It's a shame that we can't have dinner together. Been thinking of going to a nice restaurant for Thanksgiving but we're sure that the American restaurants will be full. Plus, mum's knee is still giving her problems and so we might just end up having dinner in one of the restaurants on the island. But who cares if we're eating turkey or not. Just along as we're together as a family, that's all that matters! And yes, love that JC is here too!!! Very thankful for that!

Happy Thanksgiving to one and all. Remember God's blessings and count them and be thankful!

7th Year

The 7th year of marriages is always associated with the 7th year itch. But to me, any year can be the the year of itch. This is especially in this day and age, a marriage is just a piece of paper. It's no longer regarded with the same sanctity as before. A divorce can happen just months after a marriage. At the back of the heads of some, if this marriage is not going to work out, fine, it's not a big deal, there's always another person out there for me.

I'm not putting anyone down but truth of the matter is that divorce rates are going higher and higher. But having said all that, a marriage is never easy. I know that for a fact. It is an ongoing process. And sure, there are days that I really feel like throwing in the towel and walking away from it. But it is the love that Babe has for me that makes me realise that a marriage is always hard work but it has it's rewards. There's always give and take and yes, I admit that there are times that I take more than I give and I'm learning everyday to be a better wife and person.

I'm not perfect and I admit it without hesitation and therefore I do not expect a perfect husband too. However, I'm glad that my husband accepts all my flaws and mostly without grumbling. I'm not a housekeeper. My housekeeping skills pretty much do not exist. I'm very good at making a mess at home and leaving a trail behind me. But he still loves me all the same. I'm not able to describe or even be able to write or articulate how much Babe loves me but all I can say is heaps and heaps more than I can ever imagine. And I'm always truly thankful for him.

We're entering into our next stage of life. It's an adventure that we're on. Babe's starting a new job soon and this job will take away from home heaps. It's not something that I'm totally looking forward to but it's something that I know will be better for our future and I'm supportive of whatever he does. It was a hard decision for him as I know that he hates being away from home but he wants to provide more for the family, not that we don't have enough but Babe, being Babe, loves me that he wants more for me. And that's one thing that I respect him for. He loves me as much or maybe even more than himself.

Babe, thanks for the past 7 awesome years! And yes, I'm looking forward to more awesome years ahead and growing old and walking into my sunset years hand in hand with you.

Part 1 of 7th Wedding Anniversary

Woke up this morning and Babe decided that we should go to Disney. And I thought, yea, why not. I like Disney. And then I realised that it's close to our wedding anniversary and what a great way to spend it at our favourite place on earth!

Had lots of fun. Ummm.....well, kinda. Made me kinda miss the Disneyland in California. But we're in Hong Kong and beggars can't be choosers right? Nevertheless, we had a great time. Love the light up and with the 3-D glasses that they gave us, we could see nice heart shapes of lights and heart shapes in the fireworks. How awesome! And thanks Babe for a great time!

Daring to Dream a Dream

Duane Ho is one of my favourite ex students. Well, I'm very selective about my favorite ex-students and he's one of them! I first taught him when he was probably in P5 or maybe earlier. I can't really remember, getting old, I guess. He came across as this really nice and talented boy at that time. I remember his mother inviting me to his church performance and boy was I blown away by his singing and acting.

We kept in touch even when he left the school, and when I moved to Sydney to do my masters and even now. We have built a relationship, him and his mum too. And might I add that she's one good cook and a great and nurturing mum too. I remember one summer when I was back, Duane and his mum invited me to their place for tea. Duane played the piano and sang for me. And I found out that he only picked up playing the piano recently.

Anyway, this summer when I was back, and I found out that he was in Spore Idol, I was totally rooting for him. He did tell me that he wanted to join Spore Idol and he went ahead and did it! He's young and he had the guts. And what made him special was that, he's not your typical idol. The skinny, handsome and stylish kind. Sorry, Duane, not putting you down or anything like that, but Duane is your average Sporean. The boy next door. The cute chubby boy whose not afraid to be himself. And he's not going to conform to the world's standard or rather Spore's standard of an idol. He's just him. Very him. Not caring what the world or Spore thinks. And I love him for that.

To me, Duane, you had the courage to dream a dream and not just sitting there and dream. You went ahead to make that dream come true. And so what if Spore didn't make you an idol. Who cares? Because in my point of view, you already became an inspiration to many people. And importantly, you became an inspiration to me. Dream a dream and really going out there to make that dream a reality!

People, enjoy Duane!

What Have You Done For Me?

Last week when I was at fellowship group at Park Island, there was this guy that shared his testimony and I was really touched by it.

He was sharing that he was on the plane flying from Taipei back to Hong Kong when halfway through the flight, the left engine blew up. And it was then, that his life flashed in front of him and then he heard God ask him, 'What have you done for me?'. Well, he wasn't a Christian yet and he continued with his story. Not going to talk about it as it is his story. But something struck me hard and deep.

I sat there thinking and came home pondering, yes, what have I done for Him? The reality of it, is that, I don't have the answers. I spend my life grumbling and complaining and when trials and tribulations come along, I get mad and ask and grumble at God and even shake my fists at Him. And I forget all the times that He has brought me through life and all the difficulties. But God has always a purpose for everything. And it was truly a great reminder, what have I done for Him?

If You're Not Happy Now, What Makes You So Sure That You'll Be Happy Later

On Wednesday, we went to listen to Nick speak. One thing he said that really struck me was this. He said that if you're not happy now, you're not going to be happy later. He gave the analogy of a child at 8 thinking that when he's 16, he'll be happy and then when he's 16, he thinks that when he gets to uni he'll be happy. When he gets to uni, he thinks when he starts working, he'll be happy. And so on. Well, it does seem that happiness does seem illusive then.

What he said is so true. If you're not happy, what makes you so sure that when you get more money, more food or more of whatever you want, it'll make you happy. Happiness comes from now, within and from Christ. That's my belief. I know this for a fact. I used to love to shop. And it's no secret with my family and friends. Whenever I'm a little upset or feeling down, I'll hit the stores. And after buying I'll be a little happier. But the stuff that I buy, can be sitting in the paper bags for like days, weeks or even months. And then, when my credit card bill comes, I feel even worse and the cycle continues.

Expensive lesson and it's over time that I realized that I don't need to buy anymore to make me happy. I need to be happy with myself and thus there wouldn't be a need to buy. Well, it's not that I don't buy anymore, I still. But they are no longer emotional purchases.

Hitting Mid Life

A couple days ago, I officially hit my mid life. Three scores and ten, that's an average person's life span and guess, I'm about halfway there. I know that I've must have mentioned that I'm not very good with aging and am still learning to age gracefully. And I am really appreciative of what life has given me so far.

I had friends over for dinner on Saturday and as I sat and looked around, I'm glad to have met these friends over the three years that I've been in Hong Kong. When I moved to Hong Kong, I hardly have any friends at all. But over time, God has led them one by one to me and over time, they have become family to me. Am truly thankful and appreciative of every single one of them.

When we first moved to HK, we didn't have Christian friends or a community of Christian friends to hang out together. But God is His wisdom brought a community to us. We had some of friends from the fellowship group at dinner too. I am truly blessed. There's nothing more that I can really ask of. God truly has seen me through the first half of my life and He has given me more than I can ever ask for. And I'm sure that He'll continue to see me through the rest of my life.

A Friend Loveth at All Times

Recently a friend told me that she had to call a mutual friend of ours because she was so sick that she could hardly get food for herself. It was this incident that got me thinking of my friends when I'm living overseas or when I'm living alone.

The first time that I lived alone was when i was at uni in Gold Coast. Sure, there were times that I wonder would anyone know if I fell sick and died alone. Oh yes, love my morbid thoughts! But I had Eve. She would come around or call me every couple of days to make sure I'm fine. I remember once there was a blackout and of course I was a little concerned and scared. I called Eve and she came straightaway and picked me up to go to Broadbeach for coffee. Miss those times.

Then I got married and moved out. And again, there were times that Babe had to go away for work or go for reservist training. But at that time, living alone wasn't that daunting as I was still in Spore and always have family and friends. Soon after that, I moved to Sydney to do my masters. Again, I had Eve. It's always wonderful to have a best friend living in the same city when living overseas. I had Kabi too. He would also call randomly to meet up.

Now moving to Hong Kong, I had to start from scratch with making friends. Sure like I've mentioned that I've made mistakes but now, I've found a tight group of girlfriends. It's nice of these girlfriends to check on me whenever Babe is out of town. On Tuesday night, I had a migraine attack and as I nursed my throbbing head in head, I'm thankful to know that if there's a need to call a friend to come over, I would have a few to call. And that's more than enough for me to know that there are truly friends that love at all times!

JC Takes HK

JC came to Hong Kong last Friday with her parents. Dad came from Zhuhai to join us on Saturday. It was a real nice weekend with family. It was especially nice spending time with JC. I'm really thankful that my sister realize how important JC is to me. She gladly let me carry, cuddle and spoil JC the whole time. It was also nice to see Dad light up with JC. Even Babe was enchanted by JC. Enjoy the pics!

JC playing with my pegs hanger. A few days before she came to HK, I was on video chat with her and I showed it to her. She laughed and chuckled. When she came to our home, I showed it to her. She loved it!
JC interacting with Happy. JC had a puzzled look trying to figure out what Happy is. Not quite sure if she's really a dog or a toy that she can bring home.
Lunch at Caramba. JC was so well-behaved at the restaurant. She didn't cry or scream or spill anything. Hopefully this continues.
Oh yes, I put her on the table. Doesn't she look cute and adorable? Dad was so happy with a super well behaved granddaughter. She really set the standard. Wonder what happens if my child turns out to be a screamer!
What a happy family!
A family portrait at Honeymoon Dessert. And yes, she's still not crying!
Even Babe was enchanted by her. What a sweetie pie!
My little precious JC!
Poor JC must have been really tired. This was taken at the airport. Her parents had to practically pry her away from me!

Being Used

A couple of days ago, I was chatting with Babe about stuff and he said something to me which finally dawned upon me, almost like a 'ting' moment, he said that I've the tendency to allow or let others make use of me. In the past whenever he says that, I'll be annoyed with him. But that night, it finally sank in.

A couple of things happen over last few weeks that made what he said was real. Like I wrote in my last post, things happened but people at work were very supportive and caring. Not trying to bring up the past but in my previous workplace, whenever I ran into issues, people were less caring and it was almost like 'better you than me' kinda attitude. And I realized that while I did try to make time for some people whenever I'm back in Spore, it was more like, 'let's see how well you're doing in life' or 'let's show off what we have' sort of attitudes. In other words, they are 'friendenmies', friends that are enemies! What a waste of my time!

These are people who would find an excuse to make use of me. It may be a small issue but over time, it becomes, wow, do you think that I'm really that dumb? An example of me being used is this. Years ago, I had to attend a course in NTU on Saturdays. I had a car at that time. It took about 30 mins of drive from home to get to class. For more than a year or so, I picked up 2 ladies from the bus stops across their homes, took me a 5 mins detour, to class every Saturday. When the course ended, that's when the contact ended too. There were no calls to ask how are you, let's meet for coffee or anything like that. It ended because I was no more of a use to them.

The other thing about me, I'm not a person that likes to confront issues. I'd rather let it slide pass me or unless it's really bugging me, I'll say out to the person that I really care and love. But most of the time, when I realized that I'm being used, I cut contact with the person. To me, what's the point of being friends when I know that I'm being used and I pretend to be fine with it when I'm not. Yes, that's me. Not liking to tell anyone in their faces that I hate being used!

I know that I may not have very much social time with my colleagues after work. We hardly meet for dinner or coffee or drinks outside of work. Which is fine for me as they're busy with stuff. But in my difficult moments, they showed their love, care and concern. Comparing to the other place that I used to work, yes, we did lots of social stuff, invited each other out and had meals out of work. But when push comes to shove, it didn't matter. I just became a pawn in their game of life.

So....now, whenever I'm back in Spore, I'm not really going to make an effort to call some people. They're not really my friends. But friends, my true friends, not to worry, I'll still call and meet up with you. You know who you are! And I love you heaps. And if you're offended by what I wrote, I'm not sorry because you're not a friend. But if read and miss the blunt and 'say it as it is' me, then, you're my true friend. I really miss you guys. Can't wait for Christmas to see you again and your cute babies too!

Supportive Working Environment

A couple of days ago things happened at work. I'm not going to go into what happened at work. All I'm going to say is that I was at fault. But what I was surprised at is the care, concern and support that my colleagues have given me.

To be really honest, I really didn't expect my colleagues to lend me a supporting shoulder and hand. Teachers that I don't really teach with actually came and comforted me. And even teachers that don't teach English gave me words of encouragement. I'm also in awe that even my deputy principals came to me with words of encouragement. It's nice to know that I'm working in such a loving, caring and supportive environment. I know that things happen for reasons that I may or may not know. But whatever it is, I'm glad to see and know that I do have wonderful colleagues. Very thankful!

Out from the ashes

A couple of days ago, I was feeling a little discouraged. It was a couple of things that got me a little discouraged. A little of this and a little of that, coupled with a little of others, got me down. But God send encouragements in ways that I didn't expect.

First encouragement was from Mr Brown's blog. He wrote about being happy. It was his simple faith in being happy that cheered me up and got me to look at things in different perspective.

The next encouragement was from a quote that was posted on the stairs of work. The quote was simply, Contentment makes a poor man rich, discontentment makes a rich man poor.' When I read that, I pondered a little and thought further. Well, I'm not asking for more money or for more material goods. I've got heaps, well, not heaps of money but enough but I've got heaps of material goods. Way more than I ever needed. But rather the discontentment comes from not knowing what the future beholds. I had not having control over my life but the reality is that God is in control of my life and not me.

The last encouragement, was from Dana. Dana is a fellow Christian and she's in the same role of job as me. She sent a random email that really made my day. I didn't have a great day at work. Had a monsterous student and it was really trying. And her email just made me crack and laugh. It was a simple email with pictures but it did mean quite a bit to me.

A phoenix raises from the ashes, that thought always gives me hope that with each trial that I go through, I'll be stronger and more resilient. However, often I forget that it is not with my strength that I emerge stronger all the time. It is through the grace and strength of Jesus that I get stronger all the time. As much as I hate going trials, obstacles and difficult periods of my life, I understand and am thankful that God has a purpose. I may not understand the purpose now or I may never ever understand the purpose, and there are many whys that are not answered. But I know that my Lord reigns and He's always in control.

When Babe's Away

Babe's been away since Tuesday. He's in Spore and he'll be back tomorrow or rather tonight. My days have been filled with socializing with the girls. But it was interesting when Mel said that it took her 3 years to find a nice group of friends and I thought about it, well, it's true. And I'm glad with the friends that I've now. Not asking for more. I'm really thankful for the friends and the life that I have now. God has truly blessed me.

This morning I went to work and we had a professional development day. The pastor in charge of our school started the day by sharing this story with us. I truly felt inspired and blessed and at the same time, there were many thoughts running through my head.

Hot Chocolate

A group of graduates, well established in their careers, were talking at a
reunion and decided to go visit their old university professor, now
retired. During their visit, the conversation turned to complaints about
stress in their work and lives. Offering his guests hot chocolate, the
professor went into the kitchen and returned with a large pot of hot
chocolate and an assortment of cups - porcelain, glass, crystal, some
plain looking, some expensive, some exquisite - telling them to help
themselves to the hot chocolate.

When they all had a cup of hot chocolate in hand, the professor said:
"Notice that all the nice looking, expensive cups were taken, leaving
behind the plain and cheap ones. While it is normal for you to want only
the best for yourselves, that is the source of your problems and stress.
The cup that you're drinking from adds nothing to the quality of the hot
chocolate. In most cases it is just more expensive and in some cases even
hides what we drink. What all of you really wanted was hot chocolate, not
the cup; but you consciously went for the best cups... And then you began
eyeing each other's cups.

Now consider this: Life is the hot chocolate; your job, money and position
in society are the cups. They are just tools to hold and contain life. The
cup you have does not define, nor change the quality of life you have.
Sometimes, by concentrating only on the cup, we fail to enjoy the hot
chocolate that has been provided us. The hot chocolate is there for the
taking, man chooses the cups.

Live simply. Love generously. Care deeply. Speak kindly.

It was a really nice story. It is so true, my life is like the hot chocolate and yes, the cup just holds my cup. And the reality is that clamoring after a better cup does create issues for me. Years ago, or actually, now still, but I promise, I'm much better, I was a shopaholic. And the reality was that, each time I buy something, I tell myself that I'll be happier. And yes, just another little something. And the something list never ended. But thank God, I learnt early before it was too late. And the truth is that, it's never always true that the rich is happier. And keeping up with the Jones only causes more debt for one.

With the story, contentment and taking time to enjoy life are far more important. God has given us our lives but we choose how we want to live it. We can live in the rat race by chasing after material wants and getting what the Jones or Tans or Wongs have and getting it bigger than them but will that truly make us happy?
I am truly thankful and grateful for my life now. I've got my Babe and to me, that's more important than anything. I never wanted a richer husband. What's the point of having riches but not the love of my husband?

Technology

This post is dedicated to mum. It's for her. I must say that I'm truly proud of her. Proud of her finally learning technology.

Joanne and Jacqui decided to buy mum a mini laptop since her birthday was yesterday. They told me and I told them to make sure get one with a camera and get her a pink one. So they did. Two days ago, Jacqui set up her laptop and she set up msn messenger for her too. I was thinking that no way she'll be able to use it. Actually, last Mother's Day they wanted to buy the mini laptop for her but the thought of teaching mum how to use it, turned them off. But guess, they realised that mum does need to learn how to use technology after all.

So this morning while I was at work, mum popped up and started chatting with me. Well, not too bad. And then, this evening, she popped up again. I told her to click onto the word video or accept me for a video chat and she did it. And she did it all by herself! Woohoo!!! Can't believe that! Now all I've to ask her to do is to get onto skype.

Well, talking about skype, I never really used to use it. Babe's company takes care of our phone bill and thus, I hardly saw the need for skype. Eve got onto skype and told me to get on it. And so far, I like it, not complaining. But now, am glad that I've skype. Now, I've got to make sure that my sisters get skype for mum so that I can video chat with her and she can see Happy too.

So there you go...Mum! Can't believe that you finally have you own laptop! Very proud of you!

Roller Coaster Life

I love theme parks. A real love for them. I guess it must have stemmed from my childhood. My earliest memory of a theme park was going to Gay World as a kid. Yes, Gay World??? There was nothing gay about Gay World but rather gay as in happy! I remember screaming down the roller coaster and the flying chair.

When I went to Gold Coast to study, it was almost heaven. The home of Dreamworld, Seaworld and Movieworld. Loved visiting them. Even for our honeymoon, we went to Disneyland and last Christmas we did Disneyland again and we did Universal Studios too. Oh, and not forgetting Knott's Berry farm with Eve. My next target, Orlando. Disneyworld and Universal Studios. And Universal Studios is going to have Harry Potter theme rides too! Can't wait.

Anyway, enough talk about theme parks. Well, as I think of my life, I kinda realised that my life is quite like a roller coaster ride or an exciting ride in a theme park. I never really know when the down comes and when the up comes and what will come at the turn or when will the turn comes. And like a ride, I'm not in control. I can't preempt what's going to happen unless I've taken the ride before. It's the same with my life, I've not lived my life before and therefore I really don't know what my life is going to be like. Or what's going come around the corner. And no matter what, God is in control and He's my safety net. So far, I'm enjoying my adventure ride. It is truly rather quite exciting!

Oh....just another 2 months before my little jumbo Jo Claire will be here for a visit. Can't wait!

Addendum

I've got stuff to add to my letter to God and thus, addendum.

Dear God,

I forgot to thank you for giving wonderful friends on top of giving me a super supportive family that includes my nuclear and extended family. I guess that yesterday I was so engrossed in my ranting and raving that I didn't stop to reflect that God has given me wonderful friends at every stage of my life.

When I was a kid, you gave me Lina, my cousin, to see me through my childhood and my teenhood. She's one best friend that has the seen the best and worst of my growing up. She doesn't have to say anything, just her presence comforted me heaps when I was growing up.

When I was at uni, I met Eve and till now we remained as best friends. you sent Eve to me through uni and then when I left uni, we lost contact and just before I got married, you sent her back to my life. She was there when I went to Sydney to do my masters. Sydney would been super difficult without her!

Stan, I met him in Sunday School when we were probably 6 or 7. We remained best friends from Sunday School all throughout uni. He was in Brisbane and I was in Gold Coast and till now, whenever I'm back in Spore, we make time to catch up. You gave him to me to be my reminder to have steadfast faith in you.

When I started working in WDP, in some strange ways, only you know, Sharon and me clicked. Sharon is probably total opposite from me but we clicked and got along fabulously with each other and till now, I consider her as one of my inner circle friends.

When I arrived in HK, you gave me friends at different times. Some remained as friends and some faded away because they moved away or we grew in different directions. But God, after 3 years, you provided me a good support of network. You gave me friends that I know I can count on in HK.

So after some pondering, I realised that yes, there's heaps for me to be thankful for but the selfish person in me failed to notice these little things. I'm sorry.

Thank you for every new morning,
For every brand new day,
I can just never thank you enough!

God, help me to see every day in a positive light and to be patient to wait upon you. I know, you will fulfill your will soon.

Love,
Faith

Dear God

Dear God,

Well, it might be like a letter or prayer to you. It's basically my thoughts and my prayers. There's always lots of thoughts swirling in my head all the time and it's a little difficult for my to decipher them at times. So sorry if I sound quite random.

God, I must say that you have been very gracious and merciful in my life. More so than I expect or expected. You've seen me through all of my difficult times, held my hand, walked me through and carried me. There may be times that I can't feel you being next to me but when I think back those times, I realised that you were there all the time. I can't ask for more.

But God, do you know sometimes it is hard? Well, of course you knew. You sent your son down for me and of course it was hard. And it's difficult for me to comprehend that. I know I should not complain about my life and issues that I'm going through because I know you and your son went through far more than I am going through. But am I entitled to rant and rave just a little? Look, I'm not mad at you. Don't take it the wrong way but there's a little part of me that wants to have some answers to my life now!

Yes, I know I have issues with patience. Yes, lots of issues with it. I want instant answers to my questions. I hate to wait. But I know that I'll savour the moments and things even more when you finally bestow them upon us. I know all these in theory but God, it's hard when it comes to practical. Knowledge does not always equate to actions.

However, having said and written some of my thoughts, God, thanks for everything. That's from the bottom of my heart. You've given me a wonderful husband, I could never ask for anything better because he's already the best for me! You've given me supportive parents and sisters. Family that would drop everything to come to my aid. I can never thank you enough. God, I'd appreciate if you could just hasten some of the processes in my life. But God, at the same time, take your time because I know that in your time, you make everything beautiful, wonderful and perfect. And I just have to trust in you.

Well, that's about the end of my rants and raves. Thanks God for reading and listening.

Love, your child,
Faith

Footsteps in the Sand

Footsteps In The Sand One night a man had a dream.
He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the LORD.
Across the sky flashed scenes from his life.
For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand:
one belonging to him, and the other to the LORD.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him
he looked back, at the footprints in the sand.
He noticed that many times along the path of his life
there was only one set of footprints.
He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times of his life.

This really bothered him and he questioned the LORD about it:
"LORD, you said that once I decided to follow you,
you'd walk with me all the way.
But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life
there is only one set of footprints.
I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me."

The LORD replied:
"My son, My precious child, I love you and I would never leave you,
During your times of trial and suffering,
when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."

Author unknown

The first time I read this poem, I was very taken by it. I thought, wow, it is so true. Time passed and this poem has always been at the back of my head, I know it's there but never really had the reason or opportunity to pull it out.

Two days ago, this poem came flashing and floating back. Somewhere in May, it was a low point in my life, probably one of the lowest I've had in my life. I didn't think about this poem at all. But two days ago, it came to me. I realised that at that point, Jesus was probably sitting right next to my bed comforting and carrying me through my difficulties. Two days ago, I was reminded that no matter whatever that happens, the Lord will carry me through. Then it dawned upon me, if my Jesus will carry me through whatever that happens, what's there for me to be worried or concerned about? All my prayers will be answered in time. It may be a yes, no or wait but God has a purpose and reason for everything that comes through in my life.

Isaiah 40:31

But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.

Isaiah 40:31

When to work this afternoon, have to say that obviously I wasn't too thrilled about going to work. Would much rather spend the time hiking in shopping malls with Babe or just lazing around at home. Anyway, went to work, was in the elevator and saw a poster with Isaiah 40:31. Was pleasantly surprised and very much encouraged as well.

Having been thinking and pondering about some stuff recently. And yes, there are days that I'm a little discouraged trying to second guess what's God's plan for us. But it dawned upon me today having read that verse in the elevator that God is in control and I have to relinquish my wants and needs and let Him take control. Yes, a timely and gentle reminder to wait upon the Lord!

First Week of School

School started this week. Frankly, I'm glad to be back at work. Well, I know, it's kinda strange. I missed interacting with the students. The break has been too long. Gee, can't believe that I actually typed that out.

This week started with work not being too heavy. There's work to do but at the same time, it has been interesting. One of my deputy principals asked me to help with a project and I'm more than happy to be working on the project with them. Will talk about it when I get more details. It's interesting to see me work evolve over time. This is my fourth year and it's becoming more enjoyable. Am very thankful for it.

This work week ended (Have to work tomorrow...so not really end of work week), with the thought that God has a purpose for everything and understanding that His mercies are new every morning and He is a faithful God. Still waiting upon His promises and knowing and understanding that He's in control in everything!

What if You Have ______ to Live?

We went to Noah's Ark for a school trip last week. We watched a mini show and at the end of it, we were told to scribble what we will write to our love ones if we had only 30 seconds to live. Well, that got me pondering a little.

Recently, my cousin had to make that decision. When she found out that she had cancer, it was already at its terminal stage. She probably had six months to live. There must have been really hard decisions that she had to make. I guess it must have been a difficult time for her.

I thought and wondered what if I was in that position, what would I really do? For starters, I'll spend a month in California visiting my cousins and best friend. The second month, spend time with my family and friends in Spore and the final four months, I'll hole up at home with Babe and spend all my time with him. But then again, this is what my current thoughts are and when it truly happens, things may truly change.

Yes, as usual, I am quite morbid. I tried to figure out what will I write in 30 seconds, but it was hard. How can I condense my love and gratitude to all that I love in 30 seconds? All I could think of was, "See ya later! Love ya all and will be waiting in heaven for you!" And don't worry, I'm fine, just a little overweight!

End of Summer Holidays and Start of Work

We're finally back in Hong Kong. We flew back last night. Felt a little pang when I kissed JC goodbye. It sucks to realise that the next time I see her, it'll be three months later. Oh well.....

The short trip back was really good. I caught up with my cousins. I really had a great time catching up with them. It was rare actually to see Sharon, Morgan and Xiao Di all at the same time. Was really good to see Morgan again. Am truly glad that he's doing fine. It was fun to see the next generation of cousins playing and hanging out with each other. It's rare for cousins to love hanging out together but in our family, it's quite a norm. Am grateful for my parents for that.

On the flight, I read an article from Straits Times about wayward teens. Got me into a pensive mood. I remember joking with Joanne telling her to save money so that she can send JC to Havard. Reading that article, and thinking of JC, no mother or aunty can ever envision that her daughter or niece would turn out to be a wayward teen. We all have hopes, aspirations and dreams for our children but what went wrong that they turn out wayward.

Anyway, work started today. Went in for meetings. It was nice to see colleagues and share holiday stories. Tomorrow, we're heading to Noah's Ark. It was strange to actually look forward to work today. This is the first time that I felt this way. With the new academic year, it marks my three years in Hong Kong. When we were back, friends would ask when will we head back to Spore and the answer has always been, we don't know. But one thing is for sure, I MISS JC!!!

Getting lost in my Home Country!

Can't believe that I actually got kinda lost in the MTR station today. Well, this afternoon, I was in Orchard and decided to take the train to Clark Quay to meet a friend for dinner. And what was interesting was that this friend recently moved from Hong Kong to Singapore and she gave me instructions on how to get to Clark Quay station.

So I got onto the train from Orchard, no probs, at all. Got to Dhoby Gaut station and there I was like....hmmmm.....what do I do now, followed the signs but have to say that the signs were misleading and point forward instead of pointing down to the escalators. Or, I might be too stupid to read signs. Got to Clark Quay station and got out of a mall and I was like....where is Clark Quay and where are the restuarants? Kinda shy to say that my friend had to bring me around Clark Quay instead of me bringing her around!

Singapore Again

Yup! We're back in Singapore again. I know, it sounds a little crazy and silly since we just went back to HK a couple of days ago.

Before we left Singapore for HK, there was a special from Singapore Airlines and we discussed if we should come back. And we thought, since there's still time before school starts and Babe has meeting in Singapore, so why not. Mum's leg isn't that great too and Babe's dad teeth needed to be fixed too. So on the plane we went again. But God really works in ways that we really don't know.

A cousin of mine returned to Singapore today. I've not seen him in years and I've been really concerned and worried for him for a while. But well, a call came today to say that he's coming back today. Well, even though I didn't get to see him today, hopefully, in the next couple of days, I'll be able to catch up with him.

Every day, I never cease to be amazed by God's goodness and timing.

Up - A Wonderful Love Story

Being wanting to watch Up eversince Mel mentioned the movie. I've a weakness for 3-D movies. We were going to catch it in Singapore but guess we were too busy eating and didn't have the time. Came back to HK and realised that it's still at the movies! Yeah!!!!

It's such a heartwarming movie. Boy walks past an old and depilated house and finds a girl whose as shares his dream of being an adventurer. They both have the same adventurer idol. Falls in love and gets married. Boy is an introvert and at this point of the movie, he reminds me very much of Babe. My babe. But they get along perfectly well. Life got in their way of their dream of visiting South America and soon, girl dies of old age. Boy becomes a widow and then little boy comes along and became his travelling companion.

It was such a beautiful love story. Falling in love, growing old together and when girl finally dies, boy becomes sad and grumpy. It took a little cute boy to bring back the laughter and joy. I know this sounds silly but it brought back my faith and belief in the institution of marriage. The movie also brought out the regrets that one has in his or her life. But, it also showed that even the girl didn't get to fulfil her dreams, she had a change of dreams. Her adventures in life became her adventures in a marriage.

Babe and I, by God's grace, this Novemeber will be married for seven years. It's truly by God's grace. I've friends whose marriages have fallen apart and even my favourite reality show couple's marriage have ended and think it's even getting ugly now. It's never easy for marriages to last but when I was watching this show, it made me wonder what will I do without Babe. Boy fell in love with his best friend. I fell in love with my best friend. And I pray that the day will never come that one of us will go first. But then again, who am I to dictate when mine or Babe's time is up. Go watch Up.....And I didn't cry although I almost did.

Back in HK

After about a month of being away, we're back in HK. It's nice to be home. Chilling in our little apartment and seeing Happy. Missed Happy heaps! And yes, missing JC now too.

It has been a nice time away. We spent lots of time with the family. Spent lots of time with JC. Was a little reluctant to go because of JC. Yes, I know it sounds really silly. She's such a cute and adorable baby. Would have loved to smuggle her home!

It was really nice meeting and catching up with old friends. It was especially nice catching up with Michelle and her little son. The last time that I saw her was probably about 2 years ago at Stan's wedding. At the same time, there were friends that I didn't manage to catch up. This trip although was a long trip home, but it was also a busy one. In the first week, my cousin passed on, second week, we were in Bali, mid third week, mum had a minor operation and was hospitalised. And then the fourth week rolled on. I must admit that this trip turned lots better than I expected. Ate loads and now, its time for a diet! Anyway, enjoy the pics!

JC on her play date with Cayden. Aren't they both adorable? And they both look alike too.

A bird's eye view from Mandarin Hotel. We went to Chatterbox for an early dinner. Was a little lost looking for Chatterbox in Mandarin Hotel and finally found it on the top floor. It was there temporary as the hotel is renovating.

JC was visiting mum in hospital. We bought her the yellow roly poly before going to see mum. JC started playing with it and she was really intent on pushing the toy to hear the sounds it made.

Babe's practice of being a father. He was really good with her. Very proud of him.

Check out that intent and focussed look on JC. She was really into playing the toy.

JC chilling on her play gym. Think she must be tired from all the playing.

JC looking cool in her aunt's sunshades.

Renee, Babe's cousin's daughter, in other words, his niece. Isn't she a cutie too!

JC frowning and pondering and thinking and making a poo at the same time!

JC in her bumbo seat. Think she might be trying to sit up better.

Pictures from Bali

So.....Blogspot decides that it's going to behave today and I can upload pictures. Enjoy the pictures from Bali.
The beach at Bali. Honestly, I think Redang's beach is prettier and nicer. Lots more nice white sand. And probably a lot cleaner too.
Beach at night
Me after dinner.
My sexy Babe studying my trash magazines intently.
Me relaxing at the pool.
Our favourite haunt in Bali.
Babe looking handsome and relaxed.
The kecek dance. I was telling Babe that I really wanted to watch the show and it so happened that on our last night in Bali, while having dinner, there was this dance. Enjoyed watching something cultural.

Summer Hols So Far

Been trying to blog for a while but can't seem to figure out what's with blogspot. Can't seem to be able to find the icon to upload pics. Well, I know that I'm pretty dumb with technology but this time, really can't figure out. Can't upload pics of Jo Claire and pics from Bali. Anyway, go have a look at facebook to see the pics.

Summer holidays so far has been good. Was with cousin's family when we first came back for vigil services and funeral. Am very thankful that my uncle and aunty gave my cousin a Christian funeral without any objections. Am glad to see youths from GBPC and members coming to the vigil service to encourage the family. I was very encouraged myself.

We were off to Bali last week. It was a trip that we had some reservations. On 17th of July, the Friday before we left for Bali, Jakarta had 2 bomb blasts. Of course we were concern. But I refuse to give in to the terrorists. I refused to be cowered into fear by them. Plus, or rather importantly, my God is greater than any of these terrorists! I strongly believe that God is in control of everything and that He knows when our time is up and He'll take care of us. But having said that, we would not purposefully walk into danger. We had a nice and relaxing time at the resort in Bali. Nothing to complain about. Really peaceful. Babe is getting used to the idea of heading to a beach resort once a year just to chill out and wind down and relax. No work calls and no emails, just the both of us. Had a really good time.

Going Home

We arrived in Singapore at about 10ish last night. Got home and was unpacking when mum called. She was with my cousin. She asked if we could come and she my cousin. Apparently they suspected that it was going to be her last night. We arrived at her home close to midnight. Sat with her and prayed for her. We left so that my uncle and aunty could spend time with their daughter. Came home and true enough, my came knocking on my room door to say that cousin has went home with the Lord.

Glad we made it home to see her. Glad she went home with the Lord and someday, we'll see each other in heaven.

An Update for Miracles Can Happen

Cousin received Christ and was baptised this afternoon! Woohooo!!!! Praise the Lord! After typing the last post, mum texted while I was speaking to Joanne. I was rather surprised at what I read. Called mum to reconfirm what she texted. Well, she told me that she brought Pastor to see my cousin and they talked and she was willing to receive Christ and she wanted to be baptised too. And it was Pastor's first visit too. I'm just so awed by God and what He can do. Prayers answered!

Miracles Can Happen

"Miracles can happen to those who love the Lord! Blessed are they that believe in Him, His kingdom shall be yours!"

I love this song. It's from Sandi Patti's Friendship Company. Actually, I love that album very much. Basically, it has all my favourite Christian kid's music. This week and last, this song became rather real to me. Miracles do happen but sometimes, I'm just too engrossed in my life to realise that God is performing miracles in my life. But this time, He showed me the two miracles that He has performed and am very thankful that God opened my eyes to see them.

With the first miracle, I'm surprised at how God works. I'm not going to question why or how He did it but rather relish in the thought that He works. About four weeks ago, mum texted to say that my cousin has days to live. She has terminal cancer. This Thursday, would be four weeks since the text. She has completed her chemotheraphy and she had her last radiotherapy and she would have been discharged from the hospital today. From days to live, she's surviving through four weeks. I don't know what's God's plan is but my humble prayer is for her family and the rest of my extended family to come to Christ through this ordeal.

The next miracle, I actually didn't expect this. I've been praying for Babe to be more Christianly and to seek God's plan in all that he do. Last week, Babe told me that he realised that he didn't obey and follow God's will over an issue. Not going to write about it. But I am glad that even though when Babe made that decision more than a month ago, it broke my heart and I prayed really hard for God to work in Babe and He did. God worked, even though, it's more than a month late, and the decision was already made, but I strongly believe that God has a plan for Babe to disobey and for Babe to realise his mistake. Whatever the reason is and the consequences that's going to follow, I rejoice in the fact that Babe has developed a stronger faith and he's learning to listen to God more than listening to his wants. It was a lesson to me too to see God working slowly but surely in Babe's live. Going forward, our prayer is for us to obey God's will regardless of what others think of us. As Babe said, we should fear God and obey Him more than anyone or anything else.

Weekend - Home with the Dogs

Love this pic! Happy looks so adorable! She was chilling and suntanning in the balcony and when she saw me with the camera, she started running towards me. Caught her just at the right time!

Happy with her friend, Min Min. Don't worry, we didn't get another dog. We're dog sitting while her parents while were on a holiday.
The buddies hanging out at Happy's favourite spot.
Happy and Min Min playing catch and stopped in time to kiss!

We spent our weekend with the dogs. Both of them had a good time having fun and hanging out with each other. Initially, I was worried leaving both of them at home. Worried that Happy might turn into a bully and bully Min Min. But they were fine. Playing with each other all the time.

Was at church this evening. Each Sunday, I'm glad that I'm at church and I always leave feeling rejuvenated and refreshed. Always remembering that God will remember His promises and that He's always in control regardless of the situations that we're in.

Counting down to touching the soils of Singapore soon. Just 2 more sleeps. Can't wait! Been out shopping way too much. Been on the lookout for clothes for JC. Yes, I admit that I've to stop shopping for JC. Think she might have enough clothes to last till she's 3 or 4 years old!

Struggles

Every day I'm faced with struggles from the time I wake up to the time I hit the sack. In the morning, I struggle with getting out of bed in time. As Babe calls me 'Five Minute Min'. I'm very good with five more minutes. Then the struggle with what clothes to wear, breakfast to eat and the list goes on. Well, some might call this decisions but I call some of my decisions, struggles.

I struggle lots to go to the gym, eat good and wholesome food, no snacks and guess the biggest struggle is to do my quiet time, oh, it's not that, is to live a Christianly life. Guess that's my biggest struggle. There are situations that I'm faced with and this thought always come to my mind, what would Jesus do. And it's a struggle. I want to do right by God's standard and at the same time, I want to have my say and revenge but that's not what God says.

Last week's sermon came very apt to my thoughts this week. Pastor Brett said that as a Christian there's a fine balance between love and righteousness. When one turns very righteous, love dips, and well, becomes judgmental and self-righteous (my words, not Pastor Brett's). But when love takes over, righteousness dips and discipline takes a backseat. It's hard to do the right thing all the time. Yes, I agree. When I look back at my life, my parents have done a relatively good job in having a balance between love and righteousness. They tried their best to raise us with love and discipline.

Substiutional sacrifice is an example of struggle that I go through at times. Actually quite often. There are times that I would love to hang out late with my friends and live Babe at home. But when I think about it, I'm sacrificing my time with Babe with my friends and how much can I sacrifice Babe? It's not fair for him. And it's the same with my family. It's especially hard each time I head back to Spore. Most of the time that I head back, I'm back for less than 2 weeks. In that 2 weeks, I would have to squeeze time for my family, WK's family and my friends. Naturally friends take a backseat, they are sacrificed for family. And over the 3 years, I've learnt to prioritize friends. This sounds harsh but the reality is that I used to struggle over who I can meet and how do I divide my time. But as time went by, I've come to realize that if friends really want to take time to meet me, they would make time for me and not me trying to make time for them. So it ends up a handful that I really catch up each time. Well, this summer, thank God, I'll have more time in Spore and maybe I'll catch up with more friends. But reality, I would really like to spend more time with Jo Claire!

Enough of my mindless blabberings.....Well, tomorrow, one struggle less, I can sleep in!!! Woohoo!!! Summer hols are officially here for me!

Summer Plans

All thanks to H1N1, my summer hols will start earlier than normal. Last day of work will be 7th July. Woohoo!!!! But I can't leave the country till the evening of 13th. Doesn't really bother me anyway. Anyway, we've finally booked our tickets and gotten our holiday plans worked out.

We're flying out on the 14th of July to Singapore. Would have flown out on the 13th but because we're dog sitting so we can only fly out on the 14th. We'll be in Spore close to a week and then on the 20th, we'll be off to Bali. All thanks to Krisflyer! Will be back in Spore on the 24th again and will be there till 14th of Aug. We were going to go to Phuket but Bali won at the end. H1N1 and political situation made us choose Bali over Phuket. But then again, we'll never know. Hopefully we won't be stricken down with H1N1.


Really looking forward to spending time with family and especially JC. At the same time, I'm a little apprehensive of spending so much time in Spore. It's been a long time since we've spent so much time in Spore at a go. Normally we spend about 2 weeks there but this time it's going to be 3 weeks. Just hope that I don't drive my parents crazy by spending so much time at their place. They might start charging me rent soon!

Where are We at?

I'm kinda in a reflective mood today. Guess today marks six months of the year that have passed and we have half a year left. Got me thinking about where we are at now and what's to come.

At this point of time, we're still awaiting the adoption. The wait has been way longer than we have expected. Seriously way longer, but as usual, I'm learning or rather we're learning that God's ways as always that His ways are higher than ours, His timing is always perfect.

Job wise, we are thankful, actually very thankful that our jobs are fine. We won't say that we're secure in our jobs but rather am thankful that in this economic situation, God has been faithful in providing for all our needs and even giving to us bountifully. Nothing to complain at all. Am truly thankful. Really.

Family wise, Babe and I have our ups and downs. But throughout, we have more ups, thankfully. Am glad that God has given me my soulmate and best friend. I've nothing more to ask for. With my family, there's a new addition, Jo Claire! Really excited and happy. Can't wait to see her in a couple of weeks. Just found out last week that a cousin is pregnant. So happy for her. And as with life. When there's good news, there's always bad or sad news. Found out that another cousin of mine is dying. She has days or weeks left. Life is such an irony. A new life is on the way and a young life is on the verge of leaving this Earth.

Well, because of the adoption, H1N1, and other things around the world, our summer plans have been thrown in the air, tousled around and well, in simple terms, in a mess! But we're trusting God to lead us for summer plans. God willing, we'll be heading back to Spore on the 14th of July and then heading to Bali for a couple of days and then back to Spore for about 3 weeks before heading back to HK. Would have loved to head to the States to see my cousins and Eve but with the H1N1 madness, just too much hassle. Plus, I don't want to put Jo Claire at risk when I head back.

This is where we are at now. Life is never perfect which I always admit. But it is with the grace and strength of the Lord that we get through in life. I must admit that I often forget to be thankful and be grateful. Greed gets the better of me. I have to make an effort to remind myself to reflect and ponder on God's goodness. Am looking forward to the rest of the year. Excited to see what God has instore for us.