You Never Let Go

My life is always in a limbo, I admit that. There are days that I wake up and wonder, what's with my life and why is it sometimes what I plan for my life, does not pan out? It has taken a totally different turn to what I thought is the best plan for me.

Don't get mistaken, I'm not depressed or anything like that. I'm probably in a reflective mood more than anything else. Babe has taken on a job that takes him away from home a lot. And I probably see him like once every three or four weeks. It's kinda fine for me as I know that we're trying to work hard for our future. We speak on the phone every night and with technology, we msn each other at work. So we're connected as much as we can. However, sometimes, I wonder, why? What's God's plan for us? Sure, there are days that I think, maybe I should quit my job and join him and be with him. But the reality is that I love my job. I enjoy what I have now and Babe doesn't want me to quit too. He knows me well enough.

When Babe left, my family was here for another day and then they left. Jacqui stay longer and it was nice coming home knowing that someone is at home or someone will come home later. She left last night. But i'm thankful for Happy. Don't get me wrong, I'm not homesick. I enjoy the peace and quiet too. And yes, I'm still busy, haven't really have the time to chill and have dinner at home. But last night, I did wonder what's God's plan for us. Then, this song came fleeting to my head.

You Never Let Go
By Matt Redman
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
Your perfect love is casting out fear
And even when I'm caught in the middle of the storms of this life
I won't turn back
I know you are near

And I will fear no evil
For my God is with me
And if my God is with me
Whom then shall I fear?
Whom then shall I fear?

(Chorus:)
Oh no, You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no, You never let go
Lord, You never let go of me

And I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
A glorious light beyond all compare
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
We'll live to know You here on the earth

(Chorus)

Yes, I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
Still I will praise You, still I will praise You

And I thought, how true. God will never let go of us. And even though I walk through the shadow of death, He'll be will with me, His rod and staff will protect me. And whom should I fear? In His time, He'll bring Babe back home and in His time, He'll bring the child that we have been praying and committing to Him.