Thoughts

So there are days that I want to blog and I stop because mainly, there's just too much in my head that I want to write. And honestly, I don't even know how to categorize it. Is it family, life, my spiritual walk, my boys? Then, I tell myself, I'll write another day and then another day passes and again, I'm filled with more thoughts.

But then again, this is my blog. I'm not even sure if I've got readers. So I'm going to write my thoughts and yes it may be jumbled up but I don't care.

A while ago, Babe was close to being placed in a job that would have seen us move to a third world country in the region. If anyone asked me to move to give up my job in HK and move to a third world country a few years ago, I would say a definite no because I'm in my comfort zone. I like what my salary brings me every month. I love the fact that I've finally built up a family base in HK and HK has pretty much become my home. But when the news came of a possible move, I was excited. Elated. And I started researching and finding places that I could volunteer, schools for the kids and a bunch of stuff. But then.......the door shut. Yes, God didn't want the family to move. I was mad. Yes, mad. Mad that why God didn't want us to move. Mad that I'm willing to go and why is that door shut. Mad because I decided that in faith I would not be a Jonah and go in the opposite direction.

I couldn't figure out why. Why did God kinda open the doors for me to have a peek and only to shut them. It just drove me mad. But at the same time, He has shown me that He's still watching over the family. Guiding us and reminding us that He still have plans just like in Jeremiah 29:11 For I know I have plan for you", declares the Lord,"plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future" And again, I was reminded that God isn't always talking about material blessings when He says that He's going to prosper me. But at the same time, I look at my life and realized, yes, I am blessed materially. God wants us, the Seet family to have a future. So that door shut and another door opened. And this door is perfect for this season. Babe was presented with another opportunity. Something that excites him, mentally stimulates and gives him somewhat flexi time with the family. He was able to bring Baba and Wawa for their school interviews when I couldn't. He was able to attend Baba's primary school talk with me. And I'm glad that he doesn't have to do crazy traveling. So yes, in short, God knows, He wants to prosper the Seet family and give the Seet family a future.

After sorting some of these thoughts in my head, a sermon was preached a few weeks later and this was put up at church.  And I realized that 2014 started in fear. Yes, it was fear that started 2014. I was scared. Shit scared of what was going to happen because Babe was taking a break, got news of a baby that I really wanted. Babe doesn't want the baby but I knew God wanted that baby for us and God also wanted me to keep my mouth shut and not pushed for the baby and yes, all the fears that I had for 2014. But this year, I am at peace with God knowing that His plans are greater than mine. He knew the needs of the family and every one of those needs have been met. And so my year continued in peace.

So the January went and February rolled along. And again, am thankful that Babe was able to take time off from work to be with the family. We went back to Singapore and thereafter went to Phuket for a break with Babe's parents. It was a good rest with the family. The boys enjoyed immensely and so did the in laws. And again, when I look back, I'm at peace with myself because there's nothing that I ask more than this family and the time spent together.

We got a villa with our own pool. The kids had loads of time with Babe. And am thankful that Babe is the sort of dad that would clean diapers, shower and feed the kids. A hands on dad who wants to be there for his kids.

 It's always a joy for me to see Baba and Wawa playing so nicely with their cousins. Whenever we fly off, Baba would tell me that he will miss his family in Spore. I guess at times it is hard for him to understand why we live in different countries. Jojo was quite upset and she asked Babe, 'Why can't you just get a job in Spore so that I can be with Baba?' My heart melted when I heard that.

My grandma. Not sure how many more photos will I have of her. Looking back at my life, God must have had a purpose for everything. He provided me with a grandma who showed and lived out unconditional love and in turn, I'm learning from her to love my kids and understand the true meaning of unconditional love.

So yes, a bunch of rumblings and I need to remember to be thankful for everything. And that God has plans to prosper me and my family. Oh yes, a baby girl would make things almost perfect but if not, things are already very perfect! No need to ask for more!

Round up of 2014

So, I know that I'm a little late in writing this post. There's just way too much stuff to do and too little time.

So since I last wrote, we went back to Singapore for a weekend in late Oct/early Nov to celebrate Wawa's birthday and to show him to the family. It was our first time flying with him and I was kinda worried how are we going to deal with 2 kids on the flight. But the sons were awesome! It was a good flight. Nothing major happened. Got to the serviced apartment and we had a blast. Too short a trip but nonetheless it was great as usual.

Yes, there's a whale on his cake! A reminder to Wawa to always obey God so that he will not be swallowed by the whale.

November rolled along and it was our 12th wedding anniversary. Truth be told, a marriage is never easy. Yes, never. There's always a lot of work to do. Before kids, our marriage was much simpler. Well, there were stuff to argue but there were no kids to argue about. Then throw in one kid and the disagreements add on and throw in one more, there's even more disagreements and more stuff to argue. But I am really blessed to have Babe as a partner in this marriage. Sure, there's always tough times but it's when we have these tough times that we experience the sweetness of the marriage.

Thanks Babe for always being so dependable and knowing what I like. Always pottering in the kitchen to cook dishes that I love. Thanks for the beautiful scarf that you took time to go look for it. My favorite designer and he just knew that I would totally love it. Am glad to be your partner in life's journey.

Christmas rolled along and it was my first time flying with two boys. Yes, two boys. It was a later flight and I was really worried that the boys might turn cranky and I'll probably have a meltdown too! But thank God, we survived! The boys did really well.

Yes, smiles on the flight. A mini tantrum from older boy that was over in 5 mins and guess, there'll be more of these solo flights with the boys. Babe joined us a few days later for Christmas. It was really nice to see the cousins hanging out together. Got to see my latest nephew, Jarron. But it's kinda of sad that I won't be seeing my nieces and nephew grow up. Especially Jarron who will be living in Melbourne. But I guess, this is what happens with global families.

 Wawa meeting Jarron for the first time. Jarron, can't wait to see you again. Guess, by the time I see you next, you might be crawling already. Kinda sad that I'll be missing out on you.

Jojo and Baba. It's hard for these two whenever we have to leave. Jojo gets really upset and she keeps asking Babe to get a job in Spore so that she can see Baba all the time.

 Jo Cara, my other niece. Can't believe that she has grown so much. The last I saw her in late October, she wasn't really friendly and didn't want me to carry and cuddle her. But this time round, she's all so cuddly!

Jo Callie, my youngest niece. Well, she packs a voice. A crying voice! But she's such a cutie. So the kids each have a partner. Jojo and Baba. Mei Mei and Wawa, Jo Callie and Jarron. 3 boys and 3 girls.

We were very glad to be able to sync our trips to be able to spend time with my best friend and his wife. They live in the States now and it's hard to actually see other. We were very blessed by them that they got us a room at the hotel so that they can spend time with their godsons.

Baba actually went out with them alone in the morning. It's the first time that he spend time alone with other people other than his family. But we totally trusted his godparents. He came back and was so happy with his adventure. We're thankful that our boys have them as godparents. Can't ask for more. Baba was another godma living in the States too. Got to find time to bring him to hang out with her soon.

So 2014, honestly was one of the most difficult years in my life. The uncertainty of what God wanted us to do, where God wanted to place and our future. Babe entered 2014 wanting a rest but God instead gave us a beautiful present and got Babe to enter the workforce again. I was stretched trying to figure out how to be a wife, mum and a teacher without family support in HK. But God in his graciousness brought around people who I can call upon when I need help in HK. It's really very humbling to see how God moved and continue to move in our lives. Yes, it was a tough year but I grew and learnt to rely more on Him.

And we entered into 2015.

A year late...But he learnt how to ride a bike! Yes, very proud of him. My little 4 and half year old cycling around the island.