Living out Faith

I'd rather be in the sunny island of Redang Than to be in the cold and cloudy island of Ma Wan. I'd rather be lying on the beach Than to be sitting at my desk. I'd rather be swimming with the fish and corals Than to be marking and preparing work. I'd rather be at a nice beach resort drinking coconut juice Than to be drinking water at work. I'd rather be on a vacation Than to be at work! Yes, I know....not a very good poem. But I'd really rather be at a beach now! Think the cold, damp, cloudy and sad weather may be affecting me finally! But I'll be there soon...Counting down!

I know that this is only February and I need to re-align my life. A tad early, huh? But I rather it early than late. Was at church yesterday and Pastor mentioned that as a Christian, are we living and leading a life that others are able to differentiate us from the rest of the world? That hit me. I haven't. I haven't been the Christian that has been shinning and showing Christ's love. I've been to preoccupied with myself to lead a life that's glorifying to Him. I've dissed friends for things that I'd rather do. I've not been doing my quiet time on a regular basis and basically, I've been just sliding. Maybe that's why I've been feeling lethargic and just not as what I should have been feeling. So, I've got to re-align my life and focus to lead a life that's glorifying to God and not glorifying to me. Time to refocus and reflect. Sometimes I need a break. I really need a break. I just want to lie on the beach, enjoy the sun, sand, grab...

I'm sorry if my last post has hurt some friends. I admit that I have been insensitive while writing my thoughts. Apologies.

So after writing my thoughts on my blog on Wednesday, I had a couple of friends that kinda misunderstood my thoughts. Well, this is pretty usual as my thoughts are sometimes incoherent and well, maybe when I wrote my thoughts, things might have been written wrongly. I had a friend that emailed me to ask if things were fine. A friend asked if I was mad with her and another friend, well, someone that I hadn't seen like maybe 5 years or so, popped me a message through Facebook and we had a good discussion about a Christian's point of view of marriage. He brought me back to the bible and I had to stop, ponder and reflect what are my beliefs and principles in marriage. Days spent of Youth Fellowship and Sunday School started coming back. The theories that I've learnt came rushing through my tiny brain. Ai ya....too much at a go. But I thought, maybe this is might be God talking to me and making me re-evaluate my thoughts. Like once, attending classes for counseling, I asked my l...

Recently, things have been happening to some close friends of mine that set me thinking about my life and my principles in life. A close friend of mine has been working for an organization for a long time and over the last few months, she has been feeling really down. Really depressed at times and it's affecting her sanity. She told me that the final straw hit her when she started crying and muttering to herself asking herself over and over again, 'Why?'. That's when she realize that in order to save her sanity, she has to resign and be selfish and leave the organization. I have another friend who is working in the same organization and despite the fact that she realizes that she's stressed and getting depressed and seeing a shrink, she is still working for the organization and getting nice bonus but at the same time losing her sanity. I wonder if it's worth it. Yes, she's selfless to the organization but she's losing her marbles slowly. Well, this was t...

Over time I've begin to realize that my biggest enemy is actually myself. Yup, you read that right. It's myself, me and I. No one else. Well, to be honest, I've realized this a long time ago but I was just in denial. Last night, it hit me again, that I am my greatest enemy. Sad, huh? One of my biggest flaw which is also one of my greatest strength, is my strong will. Well, to be negative, it's called stubborn. To be positive, it's called strong will. For those who know me very well, I want my way all the time and thus making me very stubborn. When I set my mind to it, it pisses me off that I don't get what I want. It's even more apparent when I am with my family. Take for instance, having dinner. When I know what or where I want to have dinner and I don't get what I want, I get real pissed, like freaking pissed! Don't ask me why, but I get pissed. And when I want to do something or get something and I don't get what I set out to get and someone o...