Living out Faith

For the first time in the longest time that I really miss home to a certain extent. Not sure if I'm homesick or what it is? Maybe it's the weather that's kinda affected me. It's gloomy, hot, rainy, in short, crap, shit weather! It started yesterday with a text from Sharon. She texted and told me that she's pregnant! And well, of course, I'm over the moon for her. Actually, more than over the moon for her. So happy for her! And then I started counting....hmmm....will I make it for her baby's first month celebrations? And then it hit me, maybe not! Damn! After work, I went to the gym. While I was trying my very best to huff and puff on the threadmill and that's when everything hit! I realised that living in overseas, I've missed out heaps on my family and friends. I'm missed out on so many things that to me are important. I wished I was there when Yati's mum passed on. Miss Joanne's engagement, missed so many things. And it felt even more w...

During dinner with Beth, we talked about our childhoods and she mentioned that it's surprising that I've turned out pretty well-adjusted. Hmm....thanks heaps Beth! Well, to a certain extent I am well adjusted but then again, I'm pretty much mad as well. I've my crappy, shitty days that all I want to do is to crawl into bed and lay there all day and night. But what will that get me? And then I thought further..... Glory for me for me to be well adjusted does not go to me. It should all go to God! The motto that I've always lived by was, 'As long as I’m not broken, I’ll be stronger….like a phoenix that emerges from the ashes.' But I've realised that leadership is not in my hands. It never has been in my hands to be exact. My motto should have been, "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" Philippines 4:13. What pride I had to say that I'll be stronger with my own strength. It is the trials and tribulations that I've been t...

I'm sure I've blogged about friendships and friends in a transient life. Well, today is another one. Had dinner with Beth last night. And she's leaving. Another friend that is throwing in the towel for Hong Kong. As much as I'm sad to see her go, but I am glad for the decision that she has made. In some ways, Beth and me are similar. We grew up in somewhat similar family environments and those environments and situations mould us to be what we are now. It was interesting when we realised that. It's a shame though as if we had more time, we would have made good friends. And to a certain extent, our views on certain issues are pretty black and white, clear cut and whatever you call it. And even her decision, would be a decision that I would make if I were in her shoes. She has decided to go back to fix what's important to her. I made that same decision more than 10 years ago. It was hard but necessary. And I am very proud and glad that she stopped herself in time ...

We went for the interview last night. In my humble opinion, it went well. At the same time, it left me with thoughts that I'm dwelling upon and thinking about. I think way too much at times. And Joanne, my sis is right as well. I'm pretty impulsive with my thoughts and actions. I act before I think. But it's good to have Babe to hold me to the ground. At the interview, our caseworker covered quite a bit. He did give us more information. We have to go for our individual interviews and a home visit. Apparently, there's a possibility that we might get a child in mid August after our homestudy. So, I've kinda decided to cut short my trip to Singapore. During the interview, my thoughts went to little Lok Yi. Spoke to Babe about Lok Yi and he said that at this point of time, he hasn't heard God's call for her. Sure, I was a tad disappointed but I've to remember that everything is in God's hands. He is in control of everything. At the same time, I am excite...

When we were kids, we used to watch wrestling with dad. And since there were 3 of us, we used to play wrestling and one of us would be the referee. Well, it was sure fun. Lots of jumping and pretending arm lock. Not to worry, no one was hurt. On Sat, I did my quiet time on this passage. 24 Then Jacob was left alone, and a man wrestled with him until daybreak. 25 When he saw that he had not prevailed against him, he touched the socket of his thigh; so the socket of Jacob's thigh was dislocated while he wrestled with him. 26 Then he said, "Let me go, for the dawn is breaking." But he said, "I will not let you go unless you bless me." 27 So he said to him, "What is your name?" And he said, "Jacob." 28 He said, "Your name shall no longer be Jacob, but Israel; for you have striven with God and with men and have prevailed." 29 Then Jacob asked him and said, "Please tell me your name." But he said, "Why is it that you a...

I hate to admit this. I can't stand people that are judgmental and passing off remarks about others. But then again, when I look at myself, I'm pretty much the same isn't it. I can be very judgmental and be adamant on my views and thoughts, disregarding others. But recently....my heart is a little broken. Well, it started with the cyclone that hit Myanmar. I got upset and angry because I can't seem to understand why wouldn't the government let in aid workers? They just want the aid without the workers. Maybe I'm be brainwashed by the media that Myanmar is evil and mean but from what I read, the government is keeping the good stuff for themselves or reselling them for a profit to make more mincemeat out of the monks (my own deduction), or whatever the reason. They gave the poor and starving rotten rice. And it broke my heart even more when the government wants the people seeking shelter in the temples to be out too. I'm like...What? Where do the govt expect t...

On Saturday, we went to Holf. Met this really lovely girl, Lok Yi. The little girl that was given up by her mother. She was so adorable, precocious and she just melted my heart. But I know that God's ways are always higher than my ways. And if it's God's will, He'll find Lok Yi a nice family and if God thinks that we're good enough parents for Lok Yi, then He'll move us. By the way, how does Jael Sunshine Seet sounds? Nice, huh? On Sunday at church, there was a Mother's Day celebration. In all my church going life, I truly believe that God must have brought us to Hong Kong for a reason and the reason, to be moved by Him in church. Truly enjoyed every moment of service. And it was really, really nice when the kids were giving out flowers to the mothers and Betty Nelson, came right to me to give me a hug and the box of flowers and she said, 'I know you'll make the greatest mum when you get your baby!' It almost brought a tear to my eyes. Betty Nels...

Before reaching home yesterday and told myself that I'll have to make it to the gym. Got home, talked to Babe, cuddled Happy and watched some telly, thinking that I'll get change in like 15 mins to get to the gym. And then......Can't believe me....I promptly nodded and fell fast asleep while still sitting on the couch! I couldn't figure out why was I so tired. Actually, I've been quite tired recently. Then, I realised....Monday night, nothing on but most of the time, I meet my girlfriends for dinner. Tuesday night, bible study at 8pm, Wednesday night, classes at Chinese University. Thursday night, nothing on, time spend with Babe and then, Friday night, class at Chinese University again. Then I realised, that I am a tad busy. But I'm happy being busy. At least going for bible study and classes at Chinese University, my brains are stimulated, rather than sitting at home and not doing much constructive. Oh well, it's the weekend coming real soon and it's ...

I'll be your dream I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasy. I'll be your hope I'll be your love Be everything that you need. I love you more with every breath Truly madly deeply do.. I will be strong I will be faithful 'Cos I'm counting on a new beginning. A reason for living. A deeper meaning. I want to stand with you on a mountain. I want to bathe with you in the sea. I want to lay like this forever. Until the sky falls down on me... And when the stars are shining brightly In the velvet sky, I'll make a wish Send it to heaven Then make you want to cry.. The tears of joy For all the pleasure and the certainty. That we're surrounded By the comfort and protection of.. The highest power. In lonely hours. The tears devour you.. I want to stand with you on a mountain, I want to bathe with you in the sea. I want to lay like this forever, Until the sky falls down on me... Bridge Oh can't you see it baby? You don't have to close your eyes 'Cos it...

I met Charles for lunch yesterday. He brought me to Nobu. Nobu....what can I say about Nobu? Nothing, except for....it was probably one of the best meals that I've eaten for a long, long time. Exquisite in presentation and taste. You really have to taste and experience it for yourself. Nobu is not like Keyaki. Keyaki is another of my favourite Japanese restaurant in Singapore. Keyaki is very tradition, very old school. Whereas Nobu is new Japanese, the new meets old but yet still Japanese in essence. Oh well, don't really know how to describe it but it was really a good meal and thanks Charles for bringing me there. At lunch, we were talking and catching up. Charles is Stan's friend and over time, he's become a very good friend of mine. Charles mentioned that he's moving to London and in the midst of conversation he asked me how I feel about Singapore as Stan told him that I don't really like Singapore very much. I told Charles how I really feel about Singapore ...