Merry Christmas

Blessed Christmas!

It's nice to be back in Singapore for Christmas. Been staying at dad and mum's for a couple of nights now and I do feel at home. Went to church yesterday and was surprised that Christine reads my blog! Thanks Christine. And it was nice that there were people yesterday at church that tried to make us feel a lot more at home. I guess, the last trip home was way too rushed and as usual, wanting to do too much in a short time, makes a trip not as enjoyable as it's meant to be.

Anyway, I want to wish all my family and friends a Blessed Christmas! We're having a party tomorrow and it'll be nice to see the rest of the family. Love love Christmas! And have to add this....Babe got me a really nice present! Can't be more pleased with him! Babe, love you heaps!!!

Fragile and Flaky

Each year as I approach Christmas, I get into a pensive mood. I have this habit of reflecting on my year, how I've lived it, have I done my best and what have I done for the Lord. Well Christmas is so close to the end of the year that it always hits me and I get all reflective. Didn't help this year when my boss wants me to do a reflection of what I've been doing for the school.

When this end of the year, I've been reminded that life is so fragile. Yati's mum has been sick since summer. When I went back in August, she was in hospital. I met Yati's at Sharon's wedding, she was still in the hospital. I gave Yati a call last week and she mentioned that her mum was getting a little better and coming out from ICU. So I thought, that's good news. On Monday, I texted Yati asking her to meet me for breakfast when I get back next week. And an hour later, Mazzy texted me to say that Yati's mum passed on. I was on the bus, a little shell shocked. This is life, huh? You really never know how it ends or how it starts. And that was one of the times that I wished so so hard that I could be in Spore to be there for Yati. But I guess, this is life, you can't have it all.

On Tuesday night, I had dinner with a couple of ladies for Christmas. It was nice. On the way home, I was just chatting with Marina and some issues came up and she asked if I was decluttering my friendship wardrobe again. I told her, I do that on a regular basis now. I love my friends in Hong Kong, don't get me wrong. But sometimes I'd rather not deal with flaky people. I'd much rather cut away all the bullshit and ask, so, do you want to be my friend? But this is so stupid. Friendship needs time to grow but living in HK, sorry, sometimes I've no time for it to grow. I want instant friendships. I want friends that will be willing to stand by me now! And I mean now! Gee, I know I'm unreasonable but I want it now!!!!

Sorry, I'm just been ridiculous again. Oh well, the spirit of Christmas might be driving me a little mad. I'm looking forward to Spore but not to the mad traffic and people...thank God Babe has managed to put us up three nights at Fullerton Hotel and two nights at Mandarin Oriental. Strange that we're going home but not exactly to a physical home....

Another Busy Weekend!

This weekend was extremely busy. So busy to the point that this morning when I woke up, I was so tired and had the biggest temptation to call to work and just tell them that I'm sick....Very sick.....But I didn't! I went to work!

All started with Friday night. Met Tania for dinner, she was passing through Hong Kong. After dinner, had drinks in Lan Kwai Fong with Tania, Marina, and some others. The next morning, had breakfast with Marina, and then off to Toys R Us to buy toys for the kids at HOLF. After toy shopping, went to HOLF to deliver toys to the kids. After HOLF, off to shop. Shopped for clothes and presents for Christmas. Then had to meet Veron and her family for dinner. After dinner, home. The next day, church, more shopping, lunch and then coffee with Tania and then more shopping and then home for dinner with Babe.

And by the time I got home, boy was I tired! But I'm glad that I'm done with all my Christmas shopping. Over and done with! And now, looking forward to Christmas in Spore!

Money Back Guarantee?

Had a lazy Sunday morning and afternoon today. Was too lazy to make it to church. Went for lunch with Babe, on the way back, got papers, read the headlines and was like gobsmacked, flabberghasted, shocked and can't describe my feelings.

Well, basically, an European diplomat and his wife adopted a korean girl when they were based in Korea. Fast forward, six or seven years on, they decided that the adoption was not working out and they decided to give up the child. So they gave the child up to Hong Kong's social and welfare department. I am beyond shock! What bastards! Yes, I don't understand their circumstances but how can they do that. Apparently they decided to adopt when the wife could not have kids and after adopting, they had 2 biological kids and so, maybe they thought that it's convenient to give up the adopted one.

This really pisses me off. I don't even agree with people giving up their dogs when they have kids and now, this. Completely ridiculous. Have they thought about the child, how would the child feel. And the guy, just said, that it's a traumatic time for everyone and his wife is going for therapy. Big freaking deal! The girl is going through a whole lot more! I remember watching Dr Phil years ago and there was this lady who wanted to return her adopted son to India because he had learning difficulties. And of course she had a good telling off.

I have lots of respect for people who adopt or are in the process of adopting. We are in the process of adopting ourselves. But please don't adopt just because you can't have kids and then when you have kids, treat the adopted kid like shit! A child is a person, has feelings, it's more than a dog. Gee...how can people be so heartless! Sorry, I'm just ranting and raving because can't believe that there are people out there that are so heartless and mean!

Home?

I've been thinking quite a bit about home ever since we came back from our weekend in Singapore. Sure, we had a great time but this trip that we had, it was a little different. It didn't feel as home as before. We stayed in a hotel and I guess, we do not have our physical home anymore. It's been sold. Sure, it was great, meeting up with everyone but there wasn't a home that we could call. For the first time in my life, I felt homeless in Singapore. Sure, I still had my parents' home to call it home but since I've not lived there for a couple of years, it's not really home. Even going to church, I didn't feel at home as I used to. Things changed.

I remember having dinner with Kim and David and David mentioned that when a person moves away to live, his or her family and friends move on with their lives. For a couple of weeks, they may miss the person but then they move on. Therefore people like us have to make extra effort to keep the friendships going and to make sure that the links are always there. I truly felt that this trip. Friends have move on and family too. I realised that I've miss a lot of my family and friends' live but I guess it's the choice that I've made to live in Hong Kong.

Ex-colleagues have asked how long will I be in Hong Kong, and the truth is, I don't know. I don't see myself running back to Singapore as soon as possible. I guess, it's the fact that I'm feeling less at home with my home country, which scares me. And that leads me to ponder if its the physical home that I don't have that makes me feel less at home in my home country? Strange isn't it that it boils down to the fact that I need a physical home in Singapore to call it home. Never thought that I'll actually feel this way.