Merry Christmas

Blessed Christmas!

It's nice to be back in Singapore for Christmas. Been staying at dad and mum's for a couple of nights now and I do feel at home. Went to church yesterday and was surprised that Christine reads my blog! Thanks Christine. And it was nice that there were people yesterday at church that tried to make us feel a lot more at home. I guess, the last trip home was way too rushed and as usual, wanting to do too much in a short time, makes a trip not as enjoyable as it's meant to be.

Anyway, I want to wish all my family and friends a Blessed Christmas! We're having a party tomorrow and it'll be nice to see the rest of the family. Love love Christmas! And have to add this....Babe got me a really nice present! Can't be more pleased with him! Babe, love you heaps!!!

Fragile and Flaky

Each year as I approach Christmas, I get into a pensive mood. I have this habit of reflecting on my year, how I've lived it, have I done my best and what have I done for the Lord. Well Christmas is so close to the end of the year that it always hits me and I get all reflective. Didn't help this year when my boss wants me to do a reflection of what I've been doing for the school.

When this end of the year, I've been reminded that life is so fragile. Yati's mum has been sick since summer. When I went back in August, she was in hospital. I met Yati's at Sharon's wedding, she was still in the hospital. I gave Yati a call last week and she mentioned that her mum was getting a little better and coming out from ICU. So I thought, that's good news. On Monday, I texted Yati asking her to meet me for breakfast when I get back next week. And an hour later, Mazzy texted me to say that Yati's mum passed on. I was on the bus, a little shell shocked. This is life, huh? You really never know how it ends or how it starts. And that was one of the times that I wished so so hard that I could be in Spore to be there for Yati. But I guess, this is life, you can't have it all.

On Tuesday night, I had dinner with a couple of ladies for Christmas. It was nice. On the way home, I was just chatting with Marina and some issues came up and she asked if I was decluttering my friendship wardrobe again. I told her, I do that on a regular basis now. I love my friends in Hong Kong, don't get me wrong. But sometimes I'd rather not deal with flaky people. I'd much rather cut away all the bullshit and ask, so, do you want to be my friend? But this is so stupid. Friendship needs time to grow but living in HK, sorry, sometimes I've no time for it to grow. I want instant friendships. I want friends that will be willing to stand by me now! And I mean now! Gee, I know I'm unreasonable but I want it now!!!!

Sorry, I'm just been ridiculous again. Oh well, the spirit of Christmas might be driving me a little mad. I'm looking forward to Spore but not to the mad traffic and people...thank God Babe has managed to put us up three nights at Fullerton Hotel and two nights at Mandarin Oriental. Strange that we're going home but not exactly to a physical home....

Another Busy Weekend!

This weekend was extremely busy. So busy to the point that this morning when I woke up, I was so tired and had the biggest temptation to call to work and just tell them that I'm sick....Very sick.....But I didn't! I went to work!

All started with Friday night. Met Tania for dinner, she was passing through Hong Kong. After dinner, had drinks in Lan Kwai Fong with Tania, Marina, and some others. The next morning, had breakfast with Marina, and then off to Toys R Us to buy toys for the kids at HOLF. After toy shopping, went to HOLF to deliver toys to the kids. After HOLF, off to shop. Shopped for clothes and presents for Christmas. Then had to meet Veron and her family for dinner. After dinner, home. The next day, church, more shopping, lunch and then coffee with Tania and then more shopping and then home for dinner with Babe.

And by the time I got home, boy was I tired! But I'm glad that I'm done with all my Christmas shopping. Over and done with! And now, looking forward to Christmas in Spore!

Money Back Guarantee?

Had a lazy Sunday morning and afternoon today. Was too lazy to make it to church. Went for lunch with Babe, on the way back, got papers, read the headlines and was like gobsmacked, flabberghasted, shocked and can't describe my feelings.

Well, basically, an European diplomat and his wife adopted a korean girl when they were based in Korea. Fast forward, six or seven years on, they decided that the adoption was not working out and they decided to give up the child. So they gave the child up to Hong Kong's social and welfare department. I am beyond shock! What bastards! Yes, I don't understand their circumstances but how can they do that. Apparently they decided to adopt when the wife could not have kids and after adopting, they had 2 biological kids and so, maybe they thought that it's convenient to give up the adopted one.

This really pisses me off. I don't even agree with people giving up their dogs when they have kids and now, this. Completely ridiculous. Have they thought about the child, how would the child feel. And the guy, just said, that it's a traumatic time for everyone and his wife is going for therapy. Big freaking deal! The girl is going through a whole lot more! I remember watching Dr Phil years ago and there was this lady who wanted to return her adopted son to India because he had learning difficulties. And of course she had a good telling off.

I have lots of respect for people who adopt or are in the process of adopting. We are in the process of adopting ourselves. But please don't adopt just because you can't have kids and then when you have kids, treat the adopted kid like shit! A child is a person, has feelings, it's more than a dog. Gee...how can people be so heartless! Sorry, I'm just ranting and raving because can't believe that there are people out there that are so heartless and mean!

Home?

I've been thinking quite a bit about home ever since we came back from our weekend in Singapore. Sure, we had a great time but this trip that we had, it was a little different. It didn't feel as home as before. We stayed in a hotel and I guess, we do not have our physical home anymore. It's been sold. Sure, it was great, meeting up with everyone but there wasn't a home that we could call. For the first time in my life, I felt homeless in Singapore. Sure, I still had my parents' home to call it home but since I've not lived there for a couple of years, it's not really home. Even going to church, I didn't feel at home as I used to. Things changed.

I remember having dinner with Kim and David and David mentioned that when a person moves away to live, his or her family and friends move on with their lives. For a couple of weeks, they may miss the person but then they move on. Therefore people like us have to make extra effort to keep the friendships going and to make sure that the links are always there. I truly felt that this trip. Friends have move on and family too. I realised that I've miss a lot of my family and friends' live but I guess it's the choice that I've made to live in Hong Kong.

Ex-colleagues have asked how long will I be in Hong Kong, and the truth is, I don't know. I don't see myself running back to Singapore as soon as possible. I guess, it's the fact that I'm feeling less at home with my home country, which scares me. And that leads me to ponder if its the physical home that I don't have that makes me feel less at home in my home country? Strange isn't it that it boils down to the fact that I need a physical home in Singapore to call it home. Never thought that I'll actually feel this way.

Whirlwind Weekend in Singapore

Had an absolutely fabulous, wonderful, great, superb and everything nice weekend in Spore. Attended Sharon's wedding. She's a great friend. She was probably my best friend while I was working in Woodlands Primary School. Sharon, I have to say, is the opposite of me. She's calm, collected, patient, cool headed, everything that's opposite of me. When I used to work with her, she calms me down and reminds me to reflect before shooting off my mouth. She was almost my rock that pulls me back to earth! When I left Woodlands, she was the person that I missed most. When Sharon met Kenneth, I was overjoyed. I was so glad that Kenneth met someone that just as nice as her. Seriously, Sharon has no mean bone in her, don't think she'll even kill an ant! That's why, she's the opposite of me.

When Sharon broke the news to me that she was getting married. I was beyond being elated! To me, come snow, hail, typhoon, cyclone or whatever, I'll make sure that I'll be there. But as time came close to her wedding, things started happening but well, God made sure things will turn out well that I'll be at her wedding. Praise God!

Sharon getting ready. On Friday before I left Hong Kong, Sharon reminded me not to be late. When I arrived in Spore, I had supper with Lina and when I got to the hotel room, I was excited that I couldn't sleep and at the same time, I was worried that I might oversleep. Anyway, I woke up before the alarm rang and made it early, way before the appointed time.

Kenneth, the dashing groom arrived right on time. Isn't he handsome? Kenneth unveiling Sharon.

Small Faith meets Big Faith. This is Faith, Sharon's twin sister, Karen's baby.
Flowergirl's basket, hand bouquet and rings on the pillow.

Sharon, Kenneth and the both dads. The service was so meaningful, touching and it was absolutely wonderful. Sitting through the service reminded me so much of my wedding vows with Babe. It was a shame that Babe couldn't make it to come with me.

A reunion of ex-colleagues. This was the group that I used to hang out with. Except for Juliet, she's retired from teaching. Miss Yati, Zali and Mazzy, we used to go clubbing all the time. Had so much fun. Doreen was another teacher that I used to spend lots of time with. Two years ago, she invited me to witness her wedding too. I really miss these people that I used to work with.

Sharon had wedding dinner on Sunday night. I stayed in the suite three floors below her. I went to her suite before dinner started. Helped her get ready as well.

These are the ladies that I used to work with. Used to go clubbing with them as well. Well, we have since retired our dancing shoes. Veron and Soo Leng have kids and Jing has one on the way. I really miss these ladies.
Veron and her Ashton. Well, I guess little Ashton must really love me!

It was great catching up with everyone from WDP. It was like a reunion for some of us. Sharon, I'm so glad to have made it for your wedding and to be part of it. I couldn't ask for more. It was one of the highlights of my year. Sharon, I really enjoyed every moment of your wedding. Thanks for also making time for me despite of your busy wedding schedule. I feel really touched that you made the effort to sit down and chat with me in the midst of all the craziness. It was such a beautiful wedding! Love you, girl! Take care! And I'll see you real soon again!

Thanksgiving

The wonderful thing about being in HK is meeting friends from different cultures. Last night I had Thanksgiving dinner with Kim and David. It was my second Thanksgiving dinner. Had one with the Carlsons last year. Thanksgiving is a wonderful time to remind myself to be thankful for the bountiful blessings that God has showered upon me. I admit that I get caught up with my life and I forget to thank God for heaps that He has provided for me.

Yesterday was pretty apt as I met Michelle Pang online. I've known for a long time, almost forever. But we somewhat lost touch as we got older but at Stan's wedding, we reconnected. We started chatting and it was very encouraging to know that we're not alone in life's journey. Michelle, will pray for you and thanks for your wonderful encouragement too.

Today is also our wedding anniversary. It's our 5th! Ya! Thank God that we survived this far. God has been great and good to us. Everyday, I'm thankful that I married my best friend. A marriage is never easy but with the help of God, we are taking this life journey together hand in hand. Babe, love you heaps!!!!

Tomorrow, it's Sharon's wedding. I am really excited for her. And it's especially special as her wedding is so close to our anniversary. Can't wait!

My Best Friend's Wedding

There's no one at work this morning except for me and another teacher. The teachers went out for a professional development class and since it's conducted in Chinese, I get to sit at my desk and blog. Not really, I've got stuff to do but I'm just procrastinating away. Anyway, I started listening to the sound track of My Best Friend's Wedding which is actually one of my favorite CDs. Then it hit me, next Sat, another of my best friend is getting married! Sharon, I love Sharon, probably one of the sweetest person on earth.

Okay, people must be thinking, gee, how many best friends do you have? Let me count, I've got Babe, Eve, Lina, Stanley and Sharon. I know, best friend is meant to be one but I guess my ultimate best friend is Babe and then the rest of my best friends will follow. When I look at myself, I count myself fortunate that I've got quite a number of best friends. But at the same time, it can be hard not being near my best friends. I'm glad I made it to 3 of my best friends' weddings and all my best friends were at my wedding. And the only one left out, is Eve. Rain, shine, snow, hail or whatever, I'll be there for her wedding as well.

When Stanley broke news to me that he proposed to Dorcas, the first thing I said to him, please tell me way in advance when is your wedding, we want to be there. So he did and we were there. It was a little easier with Stan's wedding because I was on summer holidays. Magical is all I can say about Stan's wedding. It was the same with Sharon's wedding. When she told me that Kenneth and her are planning for their big day, I told her the same thing. With her wedding, it was a little difficult as I had to plan time off from work. Praise God everything turned out well.
I can't wait to attend her wedding. So Eve, when you get married, remember to tell me way in advance.

I love weddings. Especially my best friends' weddings. It's always comforting and nice to know that they found someone to share the rest of their lives with. Almost shed a tear at Stan's wedding but with Sharon's wedding, I'm going to be strong. Well, another interesting thing about Sharon's wedding, she's getting married a day after our wedding anniversary. With weddings, it always reminds me of my wedding vows that I took with Babe. And I can't wait to hit Spore to eat again. Yes, I miss food from home, always missing Sporean food. Can't wait to see everyone again. Will see you at Sharon's wedding. It'll be a great time catching up with ex-colleagues. And I must remember to bring my camera.

Learning to Let Go

Letting go has never been a forte of mine. I actually suck at letting go. I hate letting go of my clothes, bags, shoes and my material stuff. I've got loads of things at home. I hate letting go of my material stuff and it's even harder to let go of emotions. Recently, I've been pondering over a number of things. Friendships is one of them. Over the years, I've accumulated friends. I've been thinking maybe it is time to declutter my friendship wardrobe. If there's such a thing.

Friendship wardrobe is like a clothes wardrobe. There's always a comfort piece of clothing that is always there for me and is my comfort when I feel fat and the moment I put on that piece of clothing, I feel great instantly. So that's liken to my comfort and favourite friend. That's probably Babe or Eve. Whenever I feel shit, they are there for me.

And then there is the pretty elegant dress that I wear once in a while. When I'm fat, it points out my flaws and not accept it, and when I lose weight, it makes me look great. This is the superficial friend that I've accumulated. Met plenty of these people in my life. Whenever I declutter my wardrobe, that sort of dresses always go out first and that's the same with my friendship wardrobe now. Why keep them in my wardrobe, they are just taking up space and my time? Have better things to do with that space and time.

So, this is what I've resolved to do. Declutter! I'm going only to make time for people that I deem is worth my friendship wardrobe. People who are superficial and not worth, well, sorry buddies, I've got better things to do. I'd rather spend time with my family than to ask them out for dinner, makes me feel stupid always trying to fit them into my life when clearly they have no time to fit me into their lives! This is even more so now that I've realised like what some of my friends mentioned, I've wasted time on people that clearly didn't deserve my time. And most of my friends, yes, you are in my friendship wardrobe! I love you and you know who you are!

Ironies In Life

So yesterday on CNA, Sandra Yeow and Kevin Lee won the Subaru Challenge and good for them that each gets a car. And each of them spent more than 70 hours with a hand stuck on the car. Well, good for them!

Walking to work and today, something gnawed at the back of my head. So much time wasted just for a car. This was also Sandra Yeow's third attempt. I wonder if all the time is worth it. Maybe for the winner, it was worth the time. But what about the losers? Sorry, no pun intended. Would these same people who placed their hands on the cars, place hands on packets of rice or whatever to raise money for charity? Have people, including me, turn into people chasing after material stuff without looking inside?

I know, I sound like a hypocrite now. Yes, I know. Sure, I'm one of these people chasing after frivolous crap in my life. I love designer bags, shoes, watches, clothes and loads more. When I moved to HK and cleared my flat, I realised how much stuff I accumulated and some of the stuff, I still had price tags on it. Yesterday and today got me thinking of my life. I have some much for myself and what do I give back to God and the society and to charity? Am I returning myself back, just a little portion of my life?

I don't think I'll be able to give up everything and lead a simple life but maybe it's time to look inside of me and ask myself if all these material things in life will make me a better person.

Friends and life in a Transient Life

Life is a transient life can be full of ups and downs or exciting if you look at it from another point of view. Everyday brings a new experience and everyday is a new day from yesterday. Gee...that sounds so cliche.

Let's talk about friendships. Friendships in a transient life is very random. One can never ever know if over dinner, lunch or coffee, that friendship can be cemented and it can last. I met Eve at uni. I would probably say that it was very random that we met. So random that I don't really know how we met and the friendship cemented over lots of dinners, lunches and coffees in uni. We used to walk out of lectures when it gotten so boring. But over time, the friendship lasted and hopefully, I'll never lose her a friend. And there's Susan, that I met at grad school, didn't think that the friendship will last but it did.

In Hong Kong, it's the same. But like what Marina says, sometimes we spent time getting to know the wrong people and then we realise that damn.....a year wasted on that person....what a bloody waste! And Carmen also mentioned that in a transient life, we make friends and expect to have an express friendship building. Friendships that take 5 years to build up, we expect to build it in 3 months. I always have problems with making friends. I always see the niceness of everyone and Babe calls me a naive person and when the friends do not turn out what I expect, my heart gets broken. But does that stop me from making friends? No, it doesn't. To me, it's another experience for me to collect.

This weekend, we had an unexpected guest again. Kum Hoong, Babe's cousin popped by in HK again. We had dinners with him. Very glad that we had dinner with him. Ate way too much with him. We shared with him our intentions to adopt and he was very open and supportive about it. I am very thankful that he didn't judge or ask us why but rather accepted our decision. It's always comforting to find support in family. We are still praying for the adoption and for God's direction and guidance.

A Year Older

Carmen's party. Carmen's birthday is a day before mine and her party is a day after mine. And Babe actually made it to Lan Kwai Fong for Carmen's party! Which is a shocker! I was shocked myself!
Mine birthday BBQ. Sorry was too busy either eating or talking to take pictures.

Over the years, I've come to terms with me aging and also celebrating my birthday. I used to dread my birthday because I hated getting old and I still hate getting old! But these days, I've come to realisation that being old is not such a bad thing after all. Getting older and wiser. And another surprise for this year, Babe actually remembered to bring me out for a nice dinner. He called my current favourite restaurant for reservations but it was booked out tonight. Silly guy, didn't know that he has to book at least a day in advance for that restaurant. So we went to another restaurant. I really appreciate him bringing me out. Nice dinner. Thanks Babe.
This is my other babe, Happy. Isn't she a doll?

Sanctity of Marriage

As I blog, a friend that I've gotten to know over the time that I've been in Hong Kong is planning to leave. She's become a really good friend of mine. I've come to understand that living in Hong Kong, friends can become very transient as they come and go. This is the second friend that I've seen going.

When Michelle left, I was in a way glad for her because she was going back to her boyfriend. But this friend is a different situation. She left her job because she was unhappy and her boyfriend offered to marry her. So they got married about a month ago and I was happy for them. But things went rocky and today, she told me that she is heading home. She had enough. He was cheating on her even before they were married. Poor girl found out the hard way and I won't talk about it.

I know another girl who probably has a worse experience than her. They went through the morning church service and just before the dinner banquet, he told her to just go through the motions of things and after tonight, it'll be over. And obviously, the marriage didn't work.

When I hear of these stories, I'm thinking, where is the love and sanctity pf marriage? I don't know enough of background information to make judgements. But I know that these 2 ladies made lots of effort to try to make things work. But what's the point of only one person trying. It breaks my heart.

Hun, you take care and keep in touch. I'll visit you someday. Be strong! And love you heaps! Will miss having dinners and coffees with you.

Facebook

A couple of weeks ago, Stan blogged about Facebook and today, it's my turn. When I first heard about Facebook, I was like Stan, what another one of them? Like Friendster? I resisted going on it but then.....gave in! Have to say that it's wonderful! It's a quick way to keep in contact with all my friends, keep them updated with what's going on in my life. And now.......the best bit of Facebook....

I found my long lost friends! My long lost friends from uni days. When I left uni, the internet just gained popularity and for some reason or other, I lost contact with most of my friends. I've probably kept in contact with only a handful of them. A handful of them that I can count with just one hand. It was so strange and probably a good example of the six degrees of separation. I found Joy through Poh Cheng's list of friends. And Poh Cheng is Babe's cousin's wife. I was like...wow! Can't believe that. And from Joy, I found another 2 friends from uni. I'm reconnecting to friends that I've lost contact with. It's nice to catch up with old friends, especially friends that I've not heard or seen in like 10 years! Wonder, if we can ever pull off a reunion....

Thoughts........

Checked my email this morning and there....the irritating person returned with his cynical and crap comments. He left stuff that I've deleted from my blog. Well, I deleted because I only welcome comments from my friends and people that care and love me and not people that put my religion and me down. If you don't like what I write, piss off!

Anyway, my thoughts are mine and I write whatever I like and read if you like but don't go around putting my religion and me down. Anyway, things are going well, I'm glad. Received a call this morning from Sue and she told me that Muyang is out of hospital. Very thankful. Saw him on Tuesday night. He was in good spirits and he didn't tear when I left. I wanted to stay longer but have to admit that I was way too tired to stay too long.

I'm constantly amazed at the niceness of some people in HK. Notice some. For the last two times that I've seen Muyang in hospital, there were always people or rather strangers that talked, played and entertained him. They felt sorry for him and showed compassion towards him. A couple of weeks ago, I was at Toys' R' Us getting games for the kids in school and this random lady came up to me to give me coupons to offset the bill. It was really nice of her. She didn't have to do that but she gave willingly without anything in return. Over time in HK, I've experienced and am still experiencing random acts of kindness and these kindness erase the acts of unkindness by this certain person who continues to haunt my blog. He probably doesn't have any friends or people who would show him acts of kindness and therefore he turns bitter.

But anyway, person, thanks for getting Babe over to Hong Kong. Without you, Babe wouldn't be in the career position which he is in now. Better paid and better career prospects and we're even given a chance to adopt a child in Hong Kong as well. You had been very instrumental in our lives in Hong Kong and that will remain in the past. Thanks for the past and I don't ever want to meet you in person and please I pray that our paths, both Babe and mine will NEVER cross with yours. I don't want to call a scum like you an acquaintance. Thanks for the past and leave it as it is. And don't think I'll ever blog about you. You're not worth my time anymore.

Life is a Roller Coaster but God is in Control

Babe left today for Delhi. He's going to be there for a week. Glad that he's away as I've time for myself. Went to church this morning and I didn't see Muyang. Had a chat with Sue and found out that he's in hospital as there was an infection in his leg. I went to see him in the hospital after sending Babe off at the airport.

When I saw Muyang, he had this huge, huge smile on his little sweet face. He was so pleased to see me. Don't think he had any visitors at all today. He asked me where was Sue. I told him that Sue will come tomorrow and if he wanted to see to Sue. He said,' Yes, please.' It was so sweet. I called Sue and he had a chat with Sue. He wanted to know when can he go home. He's called Holf his home now. I spoke to Sue and then tears started to roll down his cheeks. After that, 2 ladies from Christian Action came by and when they left, he started to tear again. I really wanted to stay longer and leave when he's fallen asleep. But he didn't want to sleep. I guess he was afraid that I was going to leave. So when I finally left, he teared as well.

When I left, there was this sadness in me. Muyang had this little toy laptop and he showed it to the Christian Action ladies and told them proudly that I bought it for him. I can never comprehend what this little one is going through. Today is Sunday and he's in the children's ward. Every kid in the ward had their families visiting them except for him. Even the lady that's closest to him can't visit him as she's busy at Holf. He must have abandonment issues and more. I can't imagine what's going through his head. I sat there and sang,' Jesus loves me this I know.' And there were a couple of tears and moments of sadness with him. I had to remind him that Jesus loves him. He's just going through so much and I wish I can take some away from him but how?

The other part of me, I'm so afraid of getting too close to him as I know someday I've to let go of him. I was told that he might be going back to China after Chinese New Year and hopefully, he'll be adopted into an American family. My prayer for him is to be adopted into a good Christian family. And I'm still praying that maybe he may be the one even though Babe thinks otherwise. Is it selfish on my part not wanting to be close to him just to protect myself? Have I thought about him? All he wants is just a little love. There's so much sadness in this little boy but I'm thankful that he knows that Jesus loves him. Pray for him. It's nothing serious that's he's in hospital. But rather pray for his future and God's plan for him. Pray that God will help and heal him both physically and emotionally.

Friends Sick

Maybe it's the time of the year that I miss my friends again. It got a little stronger after having tea with Charles. Charles came to HK for work and I met up with him for tea. While having tea, Stan called. Stan is like our mutual best friend. Have to thank Charles for the stunning view at The Intercontinental Hotel and the tea as well.

After leaving Charles at his hotel, I was in the cabby pondering. Stan's dad had an operation and I didn't have a chance to ask him what happened. Sharon's getting busy over her wedding next month and I'm not even helping. Still praying that I'll be able to make it for her wedding night. I've been missing lots of things that's been happening with my friends. And increasingly, I've been missing Eve as well. But I've learning that it's all part of living overseas as well. This is life. It's all part and parcel of living overseas. Thank God for Facebook. But I still and much rather spend time physically with you. So friends out there, I miss you guys heaps and heaps and love you heaps and heaps!

He's Got the Whole World in His Hands

He's Got the Whole World in His Hands

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He's got the whole world in His hands,
He's got the whole world in His hands,
He's got the whole world in His hands,
He's got the whole world in His hands.

He's got my brothers and my sisters in His hands,
He's got my brothers and my sisters in His hands,
He's got my brothers and my sisters in His hands,
He's got the whole world in His hands.

He's got the sun and the rain in His hands,
He's got the moon and the stars in His hands,
He's got the wind and the clouds in His hands,
He's got the whole world in His hands.

He's got the rivers and the mountains in His hands,
He's got the oceans and the seas in His hands,
He's got you and he's got me in His hands,
He's got the whole world in His hands.

He's got everybody here in His hands,
He's got everybody there in His hands,
He's got everybody everywhere in His hands,
He's got the whole world in His hands.

On Thursday, I emailed Pete from Holf to let him know that we were going to Holf today. Pete replied and said that Muyang will have his casts from both legs removed on Friday. We went to Holf today and we joined the singing and performing from Doulos ( a floating book fair manned by Christian volunteers). I saw Muyang and my heart leaped for joy! His casts were really off. Later on, I had a chat with Sue. She told me that Muyang's doctor was so amazed at Muyang's recovery from the surgery that he has decided that Muyang will have his braces! Praise the Lord! I have to say that I misjudged Christian Action. When they wanted to put him in the wheelchair, it was because they thought Muyang will not be able to walk as his doctor told them that from the MRI scans, Muyang's leg muscles were wasted. But on Friday, he was able to raise his leg and the doctor was amazed! Truly praise the Lord. I must confess that I feel guilty that I didn't pray hard enough for Muyang.

While playing lego with Muyang, he started to sing, 'He's Got the Whole World in His Hands.' On the way home, I was a little pensive thinking about God and the song. How apt the song. God has the whole world in his hands. In His hands, He has me, Babe, Muyang and everyone. Why do I worry when God has the whole world is His hands? A couple of months ago, when Babe left his job, there were thoughts in my head about our future. But looking back now, it was stupid and faithless of me to worry. God has the whole world in His hands and He has proved Himself to us once again. He has provided Babe with not just one job but a few jobs and Babe was in a position to choose the one that he wanted. Even after he started his job, calls were still coming in offering him jobs. How uncanny that I've learnt faith from a little boy singing this song.

Window Shopping Online

We were out today when Marina called. She was telling me that she met a net who adopted and this friend told her we might be expecting a baby in like 6 months' time. Marina mentioned that we do need to start getting ready. So started thinking about it and then...it hit me. I need to get ready! I really need to get ready! Which means I need to start shopping for the kid. Shopping!!! Ya!!! My favouritest thing to do on earth! But hang on....No space in our tiny apartment and shopping now....too soon. What do I need? What do I want? What to buy? What to buy?

And then the internet came to the rescue. I started surfing and looking around for more stuff. And lo and behold, babies are not cheap you know? There's so many things to buy for the kid without even knowing his or her age, gender or anything. Did you know that there's heaps of generic stuff to buy for the kid? Loads to buy!!! But hang on, I'm going to be good. I'll continue window shopping online until we attend the final workshop in Feb. And then let the shopping begin!

Bittersweet Weekend

I had a bittersweet weekend. Let's talk about sweet first. We always start with pleasant, sweet, , positive, nice stuff before going into bitter, shit, crap or negative stuff.

Iris Chiew, was in town and she still is. Think she's catching the plane at 8. I've known Iris forever from church. Have to mention that she's one of the sweetest persons in church. Very nice person. Spend Saturday morning with part of the afternoon with her and then we had dinner last night as well. I shared with her our desire to adopt and it was a nice surprise that she was very supportive. She was very excited as well. We talked about it at lengths and she told me that she'll pray for us. Had a wonderful time with her and her friend. And wow, Iris, she does know where to eat in HK. She brought us to this pretty yummy restaurant. They had really good desserts.

We went to HOLF in the afternoon on Saturday. It's always nice to get there to spend time with the kids. I asked Sue about Muyang and how's things with him. She gave me the news that Christian Action or the hospital may not want to put Muyang in leg braces but rather they're going to put him in a wheel chair. That broke my heart straightaway. I was indignant at that thought. To me it was like everyone has decided to give up on him. Sue shared the same sentiments as me. It was hard for us to understand why. Sue mentioned that it might be the issue of funds that Christian Action is dealing with. I told Sue that if it's the issue of funds, let us know and we'll try to raise the money for him. I felt rather terrible and upset about the situation. To me, it's like taking away the chance of walking from the little boy. But then again, maybe I'm jumping to conclusions and who am I to judge Christian Action. It might be in the situation that they have other needs to fulfill and that Muyang had the chance of getting himself fixed. There are other or many reasons that I do not know. Or maybe the doctors felt that there's no way Muyang can ever walk. I don't know.

Anyway, do pray for him. Sue will let me know how things go with Muyang. By God's grace and will, my prayer is that Muyang will be mobile in time to come.

Stork on the Way?

We went to an adoption briefing last night. Have to say that I was so excited the whole of yesterday. Went there, saw a boring and cheesy video on adopting, listened to talks. When we left, we had a clearer picture of adopting. It's not going to be an easy procedure, lots of paperwork, home visits, scrutinies and a whole load more. But we know that at the end of it all, it's going to be worth it. We are going to be able to provide a home for a child that does not have one. And like what Beth says, we can help turn someone's tragedy into something beautiful for the child. We're not going to put any preference for sex for the child, leaving age range from 4 weeks to 2 years. We're leaving things into God's hands. At the same time, we'll also see what happens to Muyang. We're going to see him this Sat and we really don't know what God's will for him. But at this point of time, we're going to spend time with him on Saturdays and pray that his legs will get well and hopefully he'll find a family. Part of me still wants him but we're leaving him in the hands of the Almightly.

Nick Vujicic is a giant of a man

In Christ alone.....He does everything. Everything can be done only through HIM. Lessons to learn everyday.

Life Without limbs -Nick Vujicic

This is so so inspiring! Joanne, my sister, sent me this video. Makes me realised that God really works in ways that we'll never know. Nick does not have an easy life but God worked through him and what more can he do for me?

Sunshine

You are my Sunshine
My only Sunshine
You make me happy
When skies are gray
You never know dear
How much I love you
Oh please,
don't take my Sunshine away

My Sunshine came back this morning! Ya!!! Well, yesterday, my brain had a meltdown. I had a really bad migraine and had to come home early. Threw up a couple of times and then had a nap. Woke up feeling a little better. Both Babe and Marina think that it's the stress of the week that finally got my brain to melt down. But I try not to think that. But rather, it's just one of those migraine days.

So Babe came home. Really happy. He was too tired to go to Holf with me so I went there alone. On the way there, I got a text from Mazzy, an old friend. While at Holf, Kabi called as well. It's nice to hear from friends. Been a little down and then suddenly these friends think of me. Thanks guys! Had a chat with Sue and I thought about stuff and I realised that I've been wanting my way and not pausing to think what does God want. So now God, things are in your hands. If Muyang or any kid or baby is ours, let it be. Babe and me are going to honour you and no one else.

Sinking

Have you ever have days that you just want to sink and wallow deeper in your shit? Do you have days that wish you that the sun better not freaking rise? Do you feel like screaming and shouting, why don't some people see my rationale?

I have one of those days. And it's not exactly nice. Was at the salon today doing my hair, colouring my hair. Being bored, I took my phone and checked my email. And I've got an email from Babe's aunty. She wasn't quite pleased with the decision of us adopting. Let's just say that she's disappointed with us. I really thought that she would be able to understand how we feel and that she would be supportive and was not expecting this reaction. I really don't know what to say to her.

I just want to adopt! Why can't people see that? Mum is coming round to it. My cousins and friends are supportive. Babe and me are happy with the decision. I just want to save a kid or 2. I never want to have my own kids. Never had that inclination. And I don't understand why is that not acceptable. Beth mentioned to me that maybe some ladies are called to adopt and that might be our calling and that's God's will for us. Just like some ladies or men remain celibate and serve God.

This is probably one of the very few times that I feel alone and not knowing what to do. I want to share with babe about how I feel but he's away and he has his issues as well that he has to figure out. So I've got deal with it myself for the moment. I made plans with a couple of friends for dinner and I really wanted to go home and wallow but I drag myself there and actually had a good time with them. Nice distraction.

What's wrong with wanting to adopt? Why do people always assume that I can't have kids? And I've been told by everyone that I can go for fertility treatment. But seriously, that's not what I think it's about. Why does people always say that, oh adopt when you've exhausted all means of having a child. Then how does the adopted kid feel? The child is already not wanted by its biological parents and now, the child is not even really wanted by its adoptive parents.

Like I mentioned before, I've always very stubborn, determined and I do want my own way. This trait in me had both been a strength and weakness for me. Strength, I've done things that I've set out for myself to complete and achieve things that I want. Weakness, I've been like a bull in a china shop. So what do I do now? Listen to what people say and do what is expected? Screw it and not have a kid at all....Be defiant and not even bother with adopting? Or just follow my belief of doing God's will? I need to calm down and try to listen to what I need to do. As much as I strongly believe, a family is between babe and me and people around us have to learn to accept this. Mum is accepting it. I'll have to speak to dad one day and everyone else have to learn to accept me and accept God's will for us. Babe just called and we talked for a bit and we'll see what happens later....

May Not Be the One

Well, life never really goes the way you want it to. How do you know if 'the one' is really 'the one'? Life is hard, isn't it?

Babe called today and we were talking about stuff and about Muyang and Babe finally said that he thinks that Muyang may not be the one for us. He explained that he does not have to draw towards him as much as I do. He also mentioned that the connection between Muyang and him is not there. He went on saying that, we'll continue to see him and we can sponsor him if need be. But also mentioned that, now he does not feel that drawn to Muyang but he doesn't know if those feelings will change. So we're leaving at it.

Sure, of course, I felt sad and a little disappointed. I know that if I really push it and shove it, I'll get my way. But it's not always about me. It's about what's the best for Muyang and about Babe's feelings too. If Babe does not feel like me, then Muyang may not be the one. I strongly believe that if I'm asking for God's will, then His will will be clear for me. Not muddled like now. I understand that adopting a child is a big deal as well. I can't just go ahead because my heart
says so. It is hard for me to learn because I've always so stubborn and strong willed. And it's this trait in me that makes me scary and wanting my way the way I want it to be. But this is time for me to learn to let go and understand that God has a plan for us and also Babe's feelings are very important and at times, more important than mine.

Pray for us and also for Muyang as well.

H and H

Was going to write about Henrik and Happy earlier but guess there was too much going on in my life. Anyway, on Sunday, Marina brought her son over to hang over with Happy. Here are the pics that Marina took. Not sure if Happy was happy with Henrik. But I have to say that Happy was pretty well behaved! And Henrik....Very lovable boy. Just look at that smile....Priceless!

Seeking God's Will

I have to be honest and say that I do enjoy living overseas, away from family and friends. Well, not that I don't love my family and friends but I find that each time I live overseas, my walk with God is closer, I begin to trust God more and I find that people that I meet have an impact and that it is God that leads me to them. It's increasing apparent to me that God is so real and that nothing, absolutely nothing happens for nothing! Will talk more about that later.

I remember when I was growing up in Singapore, the song below was one of my favourites. Last night after speaking to Joanne, I felt a little down. No, my sister's great, nothing to do with her. But rather it was about me wanting to adopt and my parents' view that got me a little down. It didn't help that I was not able to share with Babe as he's away in Germany. It was one of the first times in my life that I truly felt alone and not know who to turn to. Then for some reason, this song floated into my head.

Did You Ever Talk to God Above

Did you ever talk to God above?
Tell Him that you need a friend to love,
Pray in Jesus' name believing that God answers prayer.

Have you ever told Him all your cares and woes?
Every tiny little fear He knows,
You can know He'll always hear and He will answer prayer.

You can whisper in a crowd to Him.
You can cry when you're alone to Him.
You don't have to pray out loud to Him.
He knows your thoughts.

On a lofty mountain peak,
He's there.
Anywhere you go,
He's been there from the start.

Find the answer in His word;
It's true.
You'll be strong because He walks with you.
By His faithfulness He'll change you, too
God answers prayer.

Well, after humming to the song, I went to bed feeling a little better knowing that God will work something through. Went to work this morning, first day of new academic year. I sat down with a primary 3 boy as he was reading his Chinese storybook and I asked him to tell me the story. He started the story, in the beginning, there were tribal people and they live in a desert with the rainbow snake. And I stopped there and I asked him, do you think that's how the world was created. And to my pleasant surprise, he said, no and in turn he told me the creation story. We had chapel today and we sang,

Jesus loves me! This I know,
For the Bible tells me so;
Little ones to Him belong,
They are weak but He is strong.
Yes, Jesus loves me!
Yes, Jesus loves me!
Yes, Jesus loves me!
The Bible tells me so.

Jesus loves me! He who died,
Heaven's gate to open wide;
He will wash away my sin,
Let His little child come in.
Yes, Jesus loves me!
Yes, Jesus loves me!
Yes, Jesus loves me!
The Bible tells me so.

Jesus loves me! loves me still,
When I'm very weak and ill;
From His shining throne on high,
Comes to watch me where I lie.
Yes, Jesus loves me!
Yes, Jesus loves me!
Yes, Jesus loves me!
The Bible tells me so.

Jesus loves me! He will stay,
Close beside me all the way;
He's prepared a home for me,
And some day His face I'll see.
Yes, Jesus loves me!
Yes, Jesus loves me!
Yes, Jesus loves me!
The Bible tells me so.

It was then I was comforted to know that, yes, Jesus loves me and things will work in a way that He'll work it out to the best for us for Him. Felt a lot better. Wrote Babe's aunty an email asking her to pray for us and that settled my heart and soul a lot.

I had dinner with Beth and she's also wanting to adopt. She's also a Christian. Had a nice dinner with her. We talked about stuff and we both shared the same vision and reason why we want to adopt. Talking to her made me feel a lot better understanding that God somewhat have reasons for the people that I meet. It took a 9 year old to remind me about God's greatness. It took a stranger, Beth, that I've become friends with, her encouragement that I should believe in my convictions.

Babe called and I told him briefly about Dad's concern and to my surprise, he didn't agree to what Dad's concern but rather he seem to want to adopt and go on with it. He's very supportive and he understands my point of view and increasingly,he's beginning to have to same views and visions. Praise the Lord for it.

While writing this post, my telly's turned on to Channelnewsasia and when I looked up, Geogory Burn was speaking. He's an artist that was stricken with polio when he was a kid and thus, he has a physical disability. It was like God was speaking to me about Muyang. As much as I want to just bite the bullet and go through with it, we want our families to be supportive and understand why we want to adopt. There are times that I wish that I can just lie and say, ya, I can't have a child and therefore I want to adopt. But reality is that I never ever wanted kids of my own. There are children in the world that want and need a loving family and if we can provide one for a child, then why not?

Do pray for us as we seek God's will.

Life....Bittersweet Symphony

I used to have Bittersweet Symphony by the Verve as a ringtone on my phone. Well, the last two days were bittersweet.

Last evening, we went to watch Hearty Paws, a Korean movie. Was at the cinema and we asked if there were English subtitles and were told that there were. So we went in and low and behold, no English subtitles! We sat through a Korean movie and I managed to read some, some bits of the Chinese subtitles. Dog lovers, this show is worth to watch. And have you notice that they hardly make movies about cats? Not that I'm a crybaby or a softie, but I actually teared and cried a little in the movie. What a wonderful dog. The movie was a cross between Lassie, Oliver Twist and All Dogs go to Heaven. However, like most Korean soapies, it had a sad ending.

We went to HOLF today. It was a nice experience. In my post dated Jul 22nd, I wrote about Mu Yang and that I was drawn to him. We went to HOLF and he was there today. We had wonderful news. Apparently, Mu Yang might be able to stay in HK for good and that means that he's open to been adopted here. I spoke to Sue who has been looking after him and I was told that he has been doing very well in terms with picking up English and his legs as well. He has another operation to go and he'll probably be able to walk with help from occupational therapy. We're really praying if God is leading us to him. Babe's fear is that we might not be able to provide for him as much as we like because he needs help with his legs. But we're leaving it all in God's hands. Pray for us for God's direction.

Life is bittersweet isn't it? Happy has such a wonderful life compared to Xiao Ba in Hearty Paws. Yes, I know, it's just a movie. With Mu Yang, life is so unfair that he had to go through so many operations at such a young age and also the fact that he was abandoned because he's imperfect. When I look at my life, there are times that I grumble at the slightest thing but looking at Mu Yang, I wonder, what right do I have to complain now? God has been good to me and He's still and always will be good to us! Praise the Lord!

Wedding and Teachers' Day

Babe and me were invited to be witnesses to a marriage ceremony yesterday. It was our first time being at a marriage ceremony in HK and also our first time being witnesses. While we were at the registry, there were lots of things running through my head.

Here is a couple that I've known for about a year. And it was only in the last few months that we gotten to know each other better and we must have been significant enough in their lives for them to ask us to be their witnesses. It was a real honour to be asked to be witnesses. Thanks for the pleasure.

Being there also brought me back to 5 years ago when Babe and me put our signatures on our marriage certificate. Can't believe that 5 years has gone by so quickly. To me, it seemed it was just a couple of months ago that we got married. Normally, months can go by without us attending any weddings and now, in a matter of a month, we were invited to 2! Can't wait for the next wedding. Sharon, I'm definitely going to be there for your wedding!

And yes, today, all schools in Singapore celebrate Teachers' Day. One of the world's thankless jobs! But you know what, it doesn't matter because teachers teach because they love to teach. Well, that's for most of the teachers that I know. I started teaching because I love kids and after 8 years or so of teaching, I still love teaching. I hope that there will never come a day that I'll be sick of teaching.

When I was back in Singapore, I met up with my ex-colleagues. Sure, it was great to see them but at the same time, I felt sorry for them. They seem to be so bogged down with work and stress were eating them up. There are times that I'm in HK that I miss teaching in Singapore. I miss having my own class and having relationships with the students. But when I hear of what my ex-colleagues are going through, I don't quite miss it. I have to say that I have lots of respect for them. They work so hard and under so much stress. But at the same time, at the back of my head, I ponder and wonder if it's all worth it. Each time I'm being asked when am I going back to Singapore, my answer is always the same, I don't know. I don't know if I'm ready to give up the salary I'm getting in HK to head back to Singapore and deal with all the stress. And worse, get paid lesser to do so much more in Singapore. But it's something that we have to really think about at some point further this year. Whatever it is, readers, understand that teachers have a hard time, so don't give us the shit about teachers getting way too much holidays or working half days. Most teachers I know and including me, most of the time, we work really hard. And yes, tonight, I've to burn the midnight oil. Have to get some work done before the weekend.

I had dinner on Wednesday night with ladies from Geoexpat. It was nice to meet 2 other ladies who are also adopting. I'm meeting one of them for dinner on Monday just to chat and talk about stuff. It's nice to know others who are in the same situation as me.

Babe is going to Germany for a week for business. Freedom for me! Ya!!! But seriously, it's good as I get some 'me time'. Going to get hair done and facial! Can't wait!

Ironies in Life

Back in HK and settled in. Met up with couple of friends and it's strange that we came to a conclusion that we were glad to be back. It's an irony, isn't it? For me, the holidaying and travelling is enough and it's nice to be back. But does this mean that HK is finally becoming home for us? We've sold our car and apartment and other than family and friends, there's really nothing in Singapore for us. And at times, I don't really know where home is. People are never truly satisfied. When we're in HK, we long for Singapore at times. And then when we're at the airport in Singapore, we're glad that we're going back to HK.

Back in Hong Kong

After a long and nice vacation, we're settling back into our lives in Hong Kong. Have to say that the two trips I had were really very meaningful. Have to say they are probably the most meaningful holidays that I've actually taken.

The trip to States was wonderful. Caught up with my three cousins that are living there. Met Eve in San Diego, took nice trips to Vegas and LA. And more importantly, we spent time with each other and we talked about our future and tried to plan it in a way that we'll be able to live in the same city and let's just say that the dream is in the works of becoming a reality.

The trip to Singapore was meaningful and significant. We sold our apartment and in a way, we feel that our material links to Singapore are been cut and the reality of not knowing when we are really heading back there to live is becoming more real. Have to say that it scares me a little but I know that whatever happens, the Almighty Lord will lead us. Attended Stan's wedding, very touching have to say and am so so happy, elated, joyous and in other words, extremely happy for the newly weds. Met my two cousins that mean a great deal to me. Met my monster, glad that she's finally happy and settled with her other half. And Monster, next time, I'll make sure that I'm catching the afternoon flight so that I can get krispy kreme for you. I met Morgan as well. He's my other cousin that I'm really close to. We have similar childhoods and in his words, we shared both good and bad memories. It was so good to see him. I've not seen him for close to two years. It's a relief to know that he's doing fine and things are good with him. Got an email from him and have to say that I'm really proud and happy with the decision he has made.

My only regret of the trip, I did not get to meet the person that probably needed my time the most. I should have met him. He did not want to make the effort to meet me and honestly, I should have made more effort to go and meet him. Little One, if you're reading this, I'm sorry that I didn't make time for you. Terribly sorry, I know that I should have made the time for you. It is a regret of mine. My only wish for you is for you to get back to school and for you not have regrets in life later on. Little One, maybe you might not know but I know for a fact that your dad is hurting and is very worried for you. He loves you heaps, more than you ever know. He's not yelling or screaming at you because he does not want to get be even further from you. He's trying very hard to reach out to you. Your aunty is also very worried for you. I met her and we talked about you. Actually, everyone is very worried and concern about you. We all love you heaps. To be honest, when you were born, you were the most loved by everyone, more than your brothers. And it's still not too late to rectify and correct whatever that you want to correct. It's always better to be early than late and better late than never. If you ever need to talk to me, please call me and you know how to get my number, right? Little One's dad, if you can, get Little One to read this post. Might be good for him. Little One's dad, sorry, I didn't make time for him. I promise, the next time I head back, I'll sit down and talk to him.

Overall, my summer holidays have been good. But as usual, it could have been better.....Well, there are regrets but one can only look forward and try make amends and make it better.

Heading Back to Hong Kong

Time really flies when you're having fun! With a wink of an eye, the week is over. It has been a great week meeting up with family and friends. Can't believe that in a couple of hours we'll be catching the plane heading back to HK.

Highlights of my week. Obiviously hanging out with my family and also my Hobbit. Mum has fed her way too much. Selling our flat, little sad about it. Meeting my ex-colleagues, Amy and obviously Stan's wedding. This week has been good way too good. One of the most fruitful trips.

Stan and Dorcas' wedding was really special. Special because my best friend found his other half. His church wedding really touched me. Had to control my tears, didn't want to ruin my makeup. The service was really beautiful. The dinner last night was WOW! That's what I can say. Met friends that I've not seen in years and years at the wedding dinner. Reconnected with them. Stan sang beautifully with Dorcas and the surprise of it all, he sang a song in Mandarin! Well, if you know Stanley well enough, he can't speak Mandarin much less sing it! But for Dorcas, he sang it! It was really magical.

Sorry, folks, I forgot my camera for some reason, running very late all the time. Not pics...But well, hopefully, Stanley will email me a copy and I'll put it up. Stanley and Dorcas, congrats once again! Love you guys! And God Bless!

Got a couple of pics of them at church....Don't they look great? Enjoy your honeymoon!

Stan's Stag Night

We arrived in Singapore on 13th August. It's nice to be home. It's nice to be able to eat food that I miss and hang out with family and friends. One of the reasons that we came home is to attend Stanley's wedding. For those who don't know, Stanley is one of my best friend for the longest time. And because of Stan's wedding, I've at least reconnected with 2 of our mutual friends. One of them is in the pic, Amy. We met at Brisbane about 9 years ago or something like that.

Back to Stanley, well, since he's not giving me a chance to make a speech at his wedding, I shall blog about it. I've know Stanley for more than 25 years. To be exact, 26 years. We met at Sunday School and for some reason, we stuck being best friends. And since I've a very good memory, I seem to remember mindless things and remember probably three quarters of his family and friends. Stanley has been one of my best friends for almost forever. He's a brother that I never had and he's always been there when I needed him. He used to take me out for dinner whenever Babe is busy or out of town. I'm blessed to have a brother like him. I'm truly happy that he's met Dorcas. I remember telling him to get married before 40 because I won't be able to find a nice dress or look good. Well, thanks, Stan. You're getting married soon! I don't have to wait till I'm 40! I remember when Stan first shared about Dorcas to me and when he introduced us, I guess at the back of his head, he wanted to make sure that we'll hit off and be friends. And well, we did. She's a great person and I'm truly happy for them. At least now I know that he'll be well taken care of by her. And Dorcas, Stan is really a nice person! He's probably one of the nicest person on earth. I love him to the bits!

Anyway, enough of my ramblings. Can't wait for the wedding on Sat. It'll be a good time to meet old mutual friends, friends that I've possibily not seen in like years and years.

Last Night in San Diego

Today is my last day and night in San Diego. It has been a great time. We went to Knotts Berry Farm on Friday. Had a blast but it was really hot and the lines for the rides were long as well. There were points of time that we were going to have a heat stroke. In the evening, we had dinner with my cousin, Jolynn. (Eelynn's younger sister) We had a great time.

On Saturday, we decided not to go to Universal Studios because we did not want to deal with the people and heat. So we headed out to Santa Monica. Santa Monica's nice. We walked around the beach, had teas and then walked around the malls a little. Basically, we had a great time.

Yesterday, we went to Ocean Beach in San Diego. It's a beach for dogs. And boy was the beach crowded. All in all, it was fun with Eve and Coco.

Eve and Lucas, thanks so much for your hospitality. Eve, I'll miss you! Had heaps and heaps of fun. Till next summer, we'll meet either in New York when Babe gets there or if not, back here. Thanks for taking care of me. Really appreciate it!


On the way to the outlet near the Mexican border. It was an interesting experience. Some guy actually mistook me for a Mexican.....
On the cable car in San Diego Zoo. San Diego Zoo is very well set, very nice. Singapore's Zoo was modelled after it. Just had to see it. Had a nice stroll around the zoo.
At Balboa Park. It's a big and beautiful park. Lots of Spanish influence. When we got there, a concert just ended.
This is a La Jolla Beach. In the background, there are seals. Apparently the seals decided one day that this is where they want their home to be and have been there ever since.
At Knotts Berry Farm. Have to say that we really had a great time but at the same time, the heat was way too much and lines were very long. We actually saw a lady fainting. Think the heat might have gotten to her.
We're at Santa Monica. Nice beach. Very LA.
Eve, Coco and me went to the Dog Beach. We had lots of fun especially Coco. She was just having fun chasing dogs.

San Diego - Las Vegas - Shopping

I've been pretty busy for the past few days. So, I arrived in San Diego on 25th Jul and the next night, we left for Las Vegas. Stayed there for 2 nights. Las Vegas is a very nice place. We did have loads of fun. I love the slot machines, couldn't get enough of it. But Vegas was hot, real hot! Enjoy the pics. And honestly, I haven't taken so many flights in such a short time before.

This pic was taken at the airport. I was so surprised to find slot machines at the airport. This week, I'm probably going to take in the sights of San Diego and also we're heading to LA this weekend.

San Francisco

I've been in San Francisco for 2 days. Arrived in the night on 23rd Jul. Came back to Eelynn and Bruno's place. We had a good time catching up and just talking and trading stories. Yesterday, Eelynn brought me out to downtown to have a stroll around. It's really nice here. Babe and me came here 5 years ago for our honeymoon and it brought back nice memories.

In the evening, we had dinner with Nona, a friend that I've not seen possibly for 5 years. We had a great time having dinner and just generally catching up with each other. I'm pretty jetlagged now. My sleeping patterns are all screwed up. But it'll get better. It's pretty cold out here. The summer here is pretty similar to autumn in Sydney. Thank God, I brought a couple of long sleeves. I'll post up some pics soon. Didn't bring my wires and Eelynn's reader didn't work. Hopefully, Eve might have something.

Will be leaving for San Diego at around 4. Can't wait to see Eve!

9.55 am
25th Jul
San Francisco

At Eve's place, manage to find a firewire.

Eelynn and I at breakfast. It's how uncanny that we do look quite a like. She could actually pass off as my sister!

I love these victorian houses. Don't you think they're beautiful? Someday, someday, I'll get one of these....just someday.....

Summer Holidays are Finally Here!

Yes! My summer holidays officially started on Thursday evening! Ya!!!! Haven't been able to blog much as internet connection is down for the moment and I'm not going much to work as well. But it's been good. Well, everything happens for a reason. Been able to spend more time with Babe and also head back to my books.

We went to Home of Loving Faithfulness( http://www.holf.org.hk ) yesterday to see if this is the place that we're going to spend our future Saturdays and if its God's will for us to work with the kids. We left the place feeling that God does have a purpose for us in Hong Kong. Living in Singapore, I've always been too preoccupied with my life to really want to serve God in this area but coming to Hong Kong for some reasons made it a little different. While we were there, I felt drawn to this little boy, Mu Yang, from China. He's in HK for treatment, fixing his legs. For some reasons, my heart went out especially to him. Maybe God is speaking to me in His ways. We're praying for him and also for other issues with regards to kids and our time that we're going to give to HOLF. We pray that God is really leading us to spend some time with the kids there.

Tomorrow, I'll be leaving for the States for slightly more than 2 weeks. I'm going to see my cousins, Eelynn, Jolynn (hopefully) and Sharon. And I'm going to see Eve as well. Will be spending lots of my time with her. Ya! Really looking forward to the trip. Can't wait to see everyone! I know that it'll be a good time and can't wait to catch up with everyone. Will be going to San Francisco, San Diego, Los Angles and Las Vegas and hopefully Orange County as well. It'll be a big trip. I'm so excited! Just one more sleep.

After States, Babe and me will be headed back to Singapore. We're going to be catching up with family, friends and also selling our apartment as well. And importantly, Stanley's getting married!!! Ya! Attending his wedding!

This is going to be a great summer. But at the back of my head, I do wonder, where is God leading us to. We sold our flat and car in Singapore. Hong Kong is becoming our temporal home and we're looking to adopt a child here as well. What are His plans for us? We have no answer but we're going to learn and attune our years to Him and listen to His voice. Something that we're not used to, but we're learning. All in all, we want to thank God for everything.

Not sure when's the next time I'll be blogging. I'm sure along my holiday, I'll post up some nice pictures and updates. Family and friends, till we meet again, keep safe! Love you people! And Monster, Happy Birthday!

Welcome to the Family

Welcome to the family

We’re glad that you have come

To share your life with us

As we grow in love

And may we always be to you

What God would have us be

A family always there

To be strong and to lean on

May we learn to love each other

More with each new day

May words of love be on our lips

In everything we say

May the spirit melt our hearts

And teach us how to pray

That we might be

A true family

Welcome to the family

We’re glad that you have come

To share your life with us

As we grow in love

And may we always be to you

What God would have us be

A family always there

To be strong and to lean on

This has been one of my favourite songs as a kid. I remembered this song from Psalty’s kids’ praise. We used to listen to it all day. Till everyone got sick of it. But actually, that’s not quite true, never got sick of Psalty. Went to church yesterday and truly felt God’s presence. This song was playing when we got there. As I sat there with Babe, I started thinking of my life and my family. I truly want to thank God for giving me a wonderful family, Babe’s family and my family of friends.

This song means a lot to me. I have to admit that in my family of friends, there are some that are still not in the fold of Christ. But I’ll continue to pray for them. God has truly been great! He has given me more than just a family, more than just mere friends. He has given me so much. Like the song, a family always there, to be strong and to lean on. Family, thanks and my family of friends who are also in my friendship bus, thanks for being there all the time. Sometimes I wonder, what would I do without them! They have been so instrumental in every stage of my life.

Had friends over for dinner last night. It felt nice. HK is becoming more like home. Andrew, Marina and Hendrik came. They’re helping us to prepare for parenthood. Hendrik is our 'training baby'. Astor and Melissa, Babe’s good friend came over too. And Tania, a good friend that I’ve not since for about 2 years. I met her in Gold Coast more than 10 years ago. We used to work together and had lots of fun. It was nice to meet up and catch up again.